Without You I'm A Lost Boy

Important Decisions to be Made

I wake up to the sun shining through my window and I forget where I am for a moment, as I raise my head from my pillow I see that I'm at home. I can smell breakfast cooking so I jump up from my bed and throw on an old tattered shirt and make my way to the kitchen. I walk into the kitchen where Alison stands making breakfast, I wrap my arms around her from behind and lay my head on her shoulder.

"Morning baby" I say softly into her ear

Alison turns around with tears in her eyes and my heart breaks when I see her. "Whats wrong Ali?"

She looks up at me and whispers quietly to me "I'm so sorry Michael, I love you."

I kiss her and wrap her in my arms, I begin to speak but she goes limp in my arms and blood begins to poor from her temple where a small hole the size of a bullet is formed. I gently lay her on the ground and begin to cry. "Baby, no stay with me. Please Alison I need you." Right before my eyes Alison turns to ashes.

I wake up covered in sweat in the middle of the night, it was all a nightmare, the first one I've had since Alison died. My bed is soaked so I decide to get up and shower, I gather my things and make my way to the bathroom, as I walk in I notice how red my eyes are, I guess I was crying in my sleep. I start the water, needing the feeling of hot water washing off the feelings. I wash off and get out, the bathroom is filled with steam so I flip on the fan and I notice how red my skin is from the hot water, I didn't think the water was that hot. After I'm all dried off I decide to eat and make my way to the fridge, I find all the stuff and make a sandwich, then I begin to look for some chips, I find a bag of Doritos and sit on the counter eating. I'm almost done when a light flips on and my mum walks into the kitchen, she hates when I sit on the counter so I give her a slight smile and jump down.

"Michael Gordon Clifford stop sitting on my counter, I should ground you." She giggles

"I've missed your laugh so much mum. What are you doing up?" I ask

"I got up to check on you, but I see your up and eating. I've missed you so much Mike." She tells me.

I get up from the chair, where I sat after I got off the counter, and walk up to my mum and hug her, I breathe in her scent, take in every second in this embrace, its been a year since I properly hugged my mum and I hate that. I check the time and its five in the morning, the sun is starting to peak over the clouds, I know that my dad will be up soon for work so I ask my mum what she wants to do today, and she tells me we can go to the old movie store and get a few DVD's and just stay in all day since everyone would want to bring up Alison but I told her that I have to face her dead and not hide from it so we decide to go to the mall.

After my dad gets up and leaves for work me and my mum get ready to go out, I wear my usual black skinny jeans, old band shirt, and my doc martians, my hair a bright green that my mum refuses to acknowledge, she hates colored hair and never let me dye it when I was younger. My mum on the other hand looks like a typical Australian mom, blue jeans and a tee shirt, with her blonde hair and tennis shoes, we look so strange side by side. We get to the mall and shop for a while then stop for lunch and go back to shopping, I decided to get my eyebrow pierced and my mum of course objects but still goes with me to the shop in the upstairs of the mall.

I take a picture and send it to the guys with the caption 'You like?' they all say it looks good and Calum sends back a picture of a new tattoo, a simple 'Skywards' on his forearm, I text back that I like it. The guys and I don't talk much when we're apart, but we never stop talking in person, that's what I like about our friendship. My mum and I go back home and pop in a DVD while we wait for my dad to get home from work.

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It's been a week since we arrived in Australia and the guys and I decide to have a band meeting to talk about the tour with One Direction, so I make my way to Ashton's where we used to have our practices. As I ride up on my bike I see that Calum and Luke are already here, I walk in and say a quick to Ashton's mum and his brother and sister, his mum tells me that the others are in the garage waiting, I open the door and there they all sit.

"Hey guys, whats up?" I ask loudly, startling them

"Mike! Nothing much man, Luke and Cal just got here like two minutes ago. So what do we think about going on tour with 1D?" Ashton replys

"I think we should go, it's a rare chance for us and we could expand our fan base." Luke chimes in, Calum nods in agreement

"I agree, I know it's hard losing Ali, but it's what she wanted from us all. She would be so proud to see us on stage. Ash what do you think?" I say directing the decision to Ashton.

"Umm..Yeah. It's a once in a lifetime chance for us, so lets do it!" Ashton almost screams in excitement.

I pull out my phone and start to call Louis but realize he has my number, but I don't have his, I look at the guys in frustration and explain. I start to think maybe he was just messing with us when my phone rings, its and unknown number.

"Hello?"

"Hey mate is this Michael Clifford?"

"Yeah?" I say dragging out each syllable

"Hey! It's Louis, Tomlinson. We spoke last week about your band going on tour with me and the lads? Have you guys thought about it?"

"We were actually just talking it over, and if the offer is still open we would LOVE to join you guys on tour. Should we meet up somewhere to go over the details?"

"Uh, I can't really get out of my hotel without being mobbed so if you could come here that would be great. I'll text you the address."

"Okay great, yeah we can meet you at the hotel, we're going to have to bring our moms and Luke will have to call his since she's in America so we'll be over in about thirty minutes. See you then Louis, Bye."

After I hang up Louis texts me the address and Its not too far away from us, Calum and I call our mums and tell them to come to Ashton's so we can all go together, and Luke calls his mum and tells her whats going on and asks if she wants him to call her back when we get there so she can listen in and she says yes. After about ten minutes our mums show up and are ready and off we go to change our lives.

A/N: I'm not a huge One Direction fan so all things concerning them aren't factual at all lol. Thanks for reading so far, and Sorry the chapters are long I just write a lot lol. Please vote if you like the story!