Without You I'm A Lost Boy

Cal

Calum,

I don't really know how to start to say goodbye to you, you aren't a friend, you're my brother and I love you. I want you to know that there isn't anything you could've done to save me, and don't blame yourself, you guys were great and I am just too damaged and I hurt too much. I want you to continue to play that bass and I want you to know that your biggest fan is always watching you, hopefully from heaven. I ask that you don't dwell on me, remember me but don't fall into a pit of despair that you can't climb out of, and please don't let Mikey shut out everyone, you are his oldest friend and he needs you more than anyone, you guys are an amazing group of men and I love you all, and I want to say thank you for helping Mikey through everything growing up and for getting him and Luke to stop fighting and forming a band. Ashton won't admit it but he's gonna need someone to cry to, he'll need someone to hold him while he cries because we all know hes going to act tough but when he's alone he'll hurt, don't let him hurt himself like I know he will want to. Don't make it obvious but check his wrists every now and then for me. I love you Cal-Pal.

Goodbye Brother.