𝔚𝔥𝔞𝔱'𝔰 𝔅𝔢𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔡 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔊𝔬𝔩𝔡𝔢𝔫 𝔏𝔦𝔣𝔢 (✔)

20

Soobin

Ever since that day I found out that my dad was with Yeonjun, I couldn't take it anymore. I became distant even with Beomgyu, Taehyun and Kai. I didnt answer any calls and message from Yeonjun. I just let my phone lie down on my pillow as I immerse myself in reading lots of books. We went on a vacation, the three of us but the feeling is not the same anymore.

Before, if my dad asked me to eat outside (even if in the end it didn't happen), I will be so excited and always mark my calendar. But now, I didn't even feel excited at all. I felt so plain and numb that I don't know what is happening with me anymore.

I haven't checked my phone for the whole vacation time. I just stay in my room reading and reading and reading. Beomgyu tried to talk to me but I shut him out as well. Kai also tried but failed. I feel bad honestly but I couldn't make myself talk to them. Well at least those two have each other. While I am sitting here still craving for some love. And my dad didn't even talk to me. Nice.

It's already a start of a new school year and trust me, I don't know what to feel.

I enter the car with my headphones on and close my eyes trying to ignore the look of Beomgyu as if he want to talk to me.

When I reach the gates, I saw Yeonjun already waiting for me like he use to before. He also kept looking at his phone as if waiting for something. As I observe him, I saw how his eyes didnt shine like it used to as he look at his phone. I want to approach him but my feet drag me past him.

"Soobin"

I heard him call even with my headphones on. And trust me, I want to stop but the image of my dad flashed in my mind making me walk straight without looking back.

After hours of boring introductions and other talks from our teacher, it's already lunch time.

I didn't go to the place we all used to hang out instead I went to the indoor pool there's no one here anyway and I have a pass. Might as well focus on swimming and other sports other than basketball, I'll just see him there. As much as possible, I dont want to be near Yeonjun right now. He just make me hate him because of my dad and I don't want to hate him. I-     -     - never mind.

I jumped into the pool swimming as fast as I could. I always knew I'm good at swimming so might as well just enhance it. Also I'm a member of the martial arts club. We just train martial arts and then we compete with other schools.

Classes are over and I'm heading to the parking lot as I know the driver is always waiting on the same spot. I can't wait to have my license.

When I reach there, I saw Beomgyu talking with Yeonjun and I nearly went back to the building but the driver saw me and called me.

I walk straight pass Yeonjun and as he tried to approach me, I immediately went inside the car gesturing Beomgyu to do the same. But as we drove away, I didnt miss the hurt look on his face.

I don't want to see him sad but here I am making him sad. I am like blaming him for something he didnt do. But I just don't want to hate him like my dad right now.

How I want to just run to him right now and hug him and tell him everything is gonna be alright.

Yeonjun

I am crying.

Yes you read it right I'm actually crying. What did I do to make Soobin hate me to the point of not even wanting to look at me?

Did I do something wrong?

He is not answering me for two whole months and even Beomgyu said that he has been so distant.