It's My Life

Chapter 14

This was how my dream went:

"Carrie!" 

Someone was calling my name. I couldn't see who. It was darkness all around me. 

"Hello? Who are you? Where are you?" I asked.

Then I saw a light. It was shinning so brightly that I had to block my eyes so I wouldn't go blind.

"When are you going to do it?"

I opened my eyes and got up into a sitting position. I keep having the same dream but I never know what it means. It was time for school. And also a new surprise! For the first time ever, I was late! I scrambled across the room changing, getting my lunch and then rushing to school. Thank goodness I arrived before class started. After I caught my breath, I saw Jake talking to another guy. He was blushing. This was the first time I'd seen him blush. I hid behind a wall and heard some of the conversation. 

"Then tell her dude!" the other guy said.

"I will! Soon, but I'm nervous! What if she isn't interested in me?" said Jake

WHAT? Jake? In love? Who? When?

I was full of curiosity, anger and jealousy all at the same time. Just then the bell rang.

Damn! I needed to know more!

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As soon as class was over, I rushed out. I don't know why, but I just didn't wanna talk to him right now.

"Carrie!"

I heard some call my name. I froze. As I slowly turned around, I saw the person who had called out to me. Jake!

Oh no!

I kept my gaze to my feet or the walls. Anywhere but looking into his eyes.

"I really need to tell you something!" he said inching closer.

"Would you please just look at me!" he snapped.

 I looked him straight in the eyes.

"Is this about the girl you like?" I randomly blurted out.

He flinched. Then he started to blush.

"You heard?" he said rubbing the back of his neck.

"Just that you like someone! I don't know who!" I said.

He perked up.

"Good! Cause that's what I want to talk to you about! You see -"

He was inturupted midway when I got a call.

"I'm sorry, I gotta take this!" 

"OK sure!" he said as if he were annoyed.

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After I was done with the call, Jake was gone. I thought he was waiting for me. Guess not! For some reason, I felt really angry at him. I headed out to the parking lot, and I saw him standing near his car. He saw me staring and gestured me to go to him. I went closer and wondered what he wanted. Probably the same thing as before.

"Carrie, finally!" he said.

"Well, I'm here! What'd you want to tell me?" I asked him.

Like last time, his face lit up. Was this girl really so important to him? It obviously wasn't me! Or maybe? No, it's not possible!

"So. you know the girl, well she -"

"Stop, stop!" I said waving my arms around.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"Look. why are you telling me this? Tell her!" I said.

"I'm trying but -"

"Well, try harder because -"

"It's you, OK?" he yelled.

"What are you talking about?" I asked him.

"Look, that girl is you!" he said happily.

I burst into laughter.

"What's wrong?" he asked worriedly.

"You're joking right?" This is a joke and you're gonna say "You've just been pranked" and -"

"No! I was telling the truth! Guess you didn't believe me!"

"What? What are you saying? You weren't joking?" I asked.

I was concerned. I may have blew it big time.

"I wasn't!" he yelled. "Huh, guess you don't like me! Well, later then!" 

He got into his car and drove off. I can't believe this just happened. The one guy I happened to like and I just made a joke out of his feelings. It felt like someone had pulled my heart and just stomped all over it. I burst into tears. People were staring but I didn't care. I cried myself all the way home and into my room. I shut my bedroom door and lay down on the bed crying. I just couldn't stop. What had I just done? He seemed really upset. I guess I deserve it for being such a jerk. Man, I'm such an idiot.

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I stayed in my room all day. Peter knocked on my door to give me food and asked me if I was OK. I'd tell him to leave it outside and that I'm totally fine. Then I'd bring the food in and eat it. I cried so much, that I ran out of tears. I was so upset that somehow more tears managed to come out. The flow of tears and the endless amount of sobbing just wouldn't stop. I cried myself to sleep while saying five words.

"I really liked you Jake."

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Uh, such an annoying chapter. But I wrote it to spice things up a bit. Will she be able to fix her problems? We'll see next time! Until then, vote, comment and like ppl!