Love Can Be Confusing

Thanks.....giving.....

It's a day before Thanksgiving, we sent out the invites to the whole group, we haven't heard from anyone but Cristina. Of course she is going to come to mine, Jax and I are at his house preparing the Turkey and ham, he insisted we make brisket like they do in Texas in memory of my mom. Ugh she used to make the best brisket in the world.
I cant help but stare at Jax as he cuts veggies, focusing so hard on getting the right shape. His jaw clenched tight, shirtless with a fitted hat on and some grey Sweatpants.
He is so yummy, he smiles at his results and puts them into a bag and stores it the fridge.

"We have to put the Turkey in the fridge to marinate and then we are done."
He does as I say and looks at me with so much love,
"I'm done. It is wrong to crave you?"
I smile at him and shake my head,
"You can crave me anytime"
I say innocently, he smirks and picks me up taking me to his room gently laying me on his bed.
"What are you doing?"
I ask wrapping my arms around his neck,
"Just wanted to kiss you."
"So kiss me."
I say breathlessly getting turned on quickly, he smirks, then closes the space between us kissing me deeply.
"Wh-!"
We both sit up and se Danny looking at us, his eye full of rage, my heart aches seeing him.
"What the fuck are yall trying to pull?! Having a Thanksgiving here?! You know we always do Thanksgiving at my house. My mom looks forward to it every year! You're really just going to take that away?!"
I stay quiet while tears prick my eyes, he didn't even care that Jax was on top of me kissing me....
"Yall are all mad at Ahmina for something not of her control!"
Danny looks at me seeing tears streaming down my face, he looks at me and Jax and it hits him too.
"You and Ahmina a thing now?"
"No we are friends. She needs time to breathe from the heartbreak you have her."
"Heartbreak? Am I blind or were you not just on top of her?!"
"She kisses me to feel numb okay. She's not over you, she fucking loves you, you dumb ass!"
Danny looks at me,
"Is that true?"
I look away and nod,
"She isn't like the rest of these fake bitches that liked you for your family money, the kind that moves on the next day. She is a genuine girl and you just threw her out."
A tear slides down Danny's cheek making me want to get out of the room. I run out quickly and go to the backyard trying to catch my breath,
"Ahmina?"
I close my eyes and turn around looking at him,
"What?"
"Baby, I'm sorry for how I acted... I was stupid for leaving you."
"Don't Danny, don't do this okay? We are done, you are scared of me, I don't blame you. I did something very bad, there is nothing more to say or do."
"So it's really over?"
"Probably, I don't know. You really hurt me Danny, I almost died and it seemed like you didn't even care at all. I felt abandoned and you know how that feels but, you still did it to me. I don't know if this will be a forever breakup but, we are for now. I love you but, my heart hurts and I cant be with anyone including you until I heal."
"I-i understand..... I'm so sorry..."
I nod and he walks away, my heart cracks a little more and sobs break in my chest. I feel arms wrap around me tight and keeping me from falling apart. I cling to Jax's shirt, my tears drenching his shirt.
"Shhhh, it's okay Chula, I got you."
My phone vibrates and see a group text,
"we will all come to your Thanksgiving if you will have us."
I don't know if it's a good idea, I clean my face and look at Jax, he looks down at me with so much love and want.
"Why do you love me Jax?"
"Why does the sunshine? Why do flowers smell good? Why dose day turn into night? It just does. And I just do."
I smirk shaking my head,
"Tell me what you want chula."
"I want to not feel like this anymore. I want to be fully happy again."
"I can make you happy, just wait till your over Danny."
"I want to be over him so bad. I just don't want to feel anything for him ever again."
"Hey, you'll get to that point okay? Just take your time."
"Jax, do you think if I lost my virginity to someone it'll help me get over him?"
"What? No, that's stupid, keep your virginity okay?"
"Even if I wanted to do it with you?"
I look up at him and he looks at me hungrily,
"I mean, of course I'd love that but, your not r-ready..... God I want to take you right now so bad."
"Why don't you?"
"Because I don't want to be your mistake."
His face close to mine,
"Jax.... I really want you."
"Don't....."
He grabs my hand taking me inside, I try to cool down, I'm so heated for him. Its driving me crazy, Jax hands me a glass of wine.
"Let's watch a movie and try to calm down." I nod and we sit on the couch avoiding his dark cold room from the temptation of sex lurks there.
We sit a little spaced apart, I cant help but want to all over him. I want to be on his lap straddling him, kissing him deeply, his hands in my shirt, his fingers gripping my skin. I get tingles all over thinking about it, I smile biting my lip.
I look at him and he looks at me, my heart racing so fast.
"What?"
He asks smirking.
"Just thinking..."
"About?"
He asks, I smile and shake my head as the movie starts, my body is screaming for his touch. I lay down and try to relax and he lays down behind me. His arm wrapped around my waist gently, I pretend to get comfortable my butt rubbing gently on his groin. I smirk as he clears his throat, I do it again and he tenses up but fails to keep cool because he is hard now. I bite my lip as his hand slides into my shirt, the contact of his hands on my skin makes my body set fire. His hand sliding gently up to my breast but, he stood himself. Ugh I need him to touch me!
I grab his hand and slide it into my pajama shorts, he doesn't hesitate to put his fingers inside me. Whimpers escape me as he pumps his finger in me, oh god this feels so good!
He gets on top of me our lips latch with a heated kiss, I love kissing him, I love the way his hands feel on my body. God I wish I would have stayed with him the first time, we would have been perfect.
"I love how wet you get for me."
He whispers as I cum, I giggle and he smiled down at me.
"Your so damn sexy."
"I want more....."
"Ahmina, I cant....  I know your not ready. Please just give it some time. I swear I really, really do want to be your first." I sigh and get up, I grab my car keys.
"Chula please don't be mad! Come back please babygirl!" I clench my eyes and turn around,
"Where are you going!?"
"To find someone to take my virginity."
"Why do you want to lose it so bad?"
"Because I want to know what it feels like to have sex. I wasn't a virgin by choice, my dad would take me to see an OB regularly to make sure I was a virgin and if I ever came up as a non virgin he would have killed me. I've always wanted to do more and yeah I've pushed Danny and you away the first but I know what I want."
"Okay, that's fine but, I don't want to be just someone that takes your virginity and not be someone special to you okay? Do you what it's like to love someone and watch then want someone else the whole time and on top of that, that someone you love likes you too and wants you to take their virginity without there even being something special that keeps them together. I don't want to have sex with you only to be left in the dust, I want us I want a relationship before we do it for the first time. I may seem stupid or like a pussy but, I'm not hiding the way I want you and need you anymore. I fucking love you!"
"Fuck you make things so difficult Jax! Why can't you just fuck me!?"
"Because I want to make love to you."
My heart slows down hearing that, I feel warm and dizzy, some of the broken pieces of my heart just repaired. He walks over to me and grabs my hands,
"I love you Ahmina, I just want to do things right. You deserve that."
"Jax, you just made my heart feel better."
Tears slide down my cheek,
"Fuck Jax..... why are you so amazing?"
"I wasn't always. I used to hurt you."
"Jax, I just want my heart to fix already so i can be with you....."
He smirks and pulls me into him, his lips press against mine gently, my phone vibrates,
"Cristina?"
I look at Jax and answer the phone.
"Hello?"
"Ahmina.... c-can you please come home? I need you..."
"Babe, why are you crying? What's going on?"
"There is blood everywhere...."
"Blood?! I'm on my way!"
"What happened?"
Jax says rushing out of the house with me and into his car, he peels out, my heart racing as we pull up to her house within 8 minutes.
We run in and I find Cristina crying on the flood in a bloody robe.
"Baby, what happened?"
"I had a miscarriage..... I lost the baby!"
My heart aches as she cries into my chest clinging to me tightly.
"Have you told Eric?"
"No.... Jax can you call him please?"
Jax gets his phone out telling Eric to get here ASAP, a little while later Eric come in and sees the mess.
"Please leave us alone."
Jax and I leave the bathroom as Eric pulls her into him, I can hear her sobbing as well as him. I take Jax to my room with tears falling down my face.
"I feel so sorry for them, they were so happy about the baby."
"Maybe it wasn't their time to have a baby, we are only 16."
"I know but it still sucks for them because they were happy."
We hear footsteps on the stairs and I sigh knowing all the guys are here now. My stomach twists when I hear Cin's voice, they come up to my room and become silent.
"Hey guys...."
Jax says, I get up and go downstairs to be away from them, I sit by the pool with my feet in the water.
"Hey.... can we talk?"
I nod at Cin and he sits next to me,
"I just wanted to apologize for the other day."
"You mean the day you drive me to kill myself?"
"Uh, yeah.... I'm really, really, really sorry. I'm was being such and asshole. I, we, all really miss you and the light your bring with you. But I have to say it has dimmed."
I nod,
"Your forgiven all of yall but, I'm still depressed about Danny and I."
"I told you we were team Jax. Danny is weird, he will really like a girl then he will get scared and run away like a little bitch then blame Jax fir their going to be with him. Its like a never ending cycle but, Jax definitely wont leave you in the dust like Danny. He stays with a girl till the girl fucks up, he only left the last one because he really really liked you and she was always going out to parties instead of going to see him. You need to move on from Danny asap."
"That was a lot to take in but, I know. I'm trying too I just don't want to get Into another relationship."
"Jump the gun girl! Jax will repair your broken heart in weeks if not days. He loves the hell out of you."
"You really think I shouldn't wait? What if he becomes my rebound guy?"
"Jax? A rebound? Hun have you seen that man? There is no rebounding him."
He says making us both laugh, he bumps his shoulder with mine,
"There's the light I've missed."
I bite my lip as he helps me up, we turn around and see Danny was there the whole time.
"Fuck it." He says then goes inside, Cin rolls his eyes,
"He is such a drama king I swear he us more like a girl than I am."
We both laugh and go inside, music starts to blast and I see Cristina lighting up a blunt.
"Eric what's going on?"
"She just wants to dance and feel numb."
"Okay well I cant stay, I need to go start cooking the Turkey. Do you think you can handle her?"
He nods,
"Yeah go ahead, we will be there."
I grab Jax's hand,
"Come on, we have to start cooking. It's already 5am."
We go back to his house and start getting the Turkey ready, now that it's in the oven I feel a wave of exhaustion hit me. I yawn and sit on the couch I lay down looking up at the ceiling.
"Once everyone eats I'm going straight to bed for a nap."
"You're going to nap here right?"
"I don't know, Cristina needs me right now."
"Everyone needs you but, not like I do Chula."
He pushes me to lay on my back making my body feel heated,
"Jax we cant do this right now."
"You were ready to lose your virginity an hour ago and now we cant even make out?"
He says climbing on top of me, I smirk.
"Only because I'm exhausted."
"Okay, fine. I'll just hold you then."
He climbs behind me and holds me tight, we nap for a good two hours then finish up our cooking. The table is set and there is already a knock on the door. My eyes widen seeing Faith, Danny's mom and everyone else. She pulls me into a hug and I feel love, she holds my face in her hands,
"I miss you sweet girl..... when are you coming home?"
The room falls silent and I look at Danny to save me, he pulls me into a hug and we all sit down.
"Does anyone want to say a prayer?"
I ask nervously.
"I would like to say that I'm grateful the we all have another day to live and to celebrate another Thanksgiving with a new family member Ahmina who has opened our eyes to new things and new feelings. If it wasn't for her I don't know if we would have ever changed from being bullies to heroes. She put up a lot with us and she forgave us and i am forever grateful for that. Ahmina, I'm grateful to have you in my life."
Ty says making my eyes water, they all stand up and clap, I shake my head.
"I love yall."
They say
"We love you." In unison, we laugh and eat, make jokes and for once I feel like I have a family now. I haven't felt this in a long time...
Time stopped as we hear banging on the door, Jax gets up to answer the door and we see cops storming in.
"Ahmina Guerrero, your are under arrest for the murder for Manuel Lopez, you have the right to remain silent anything you say or do will be held against you in a court of law if you do not have a lawyer one will be appointed to you, do you understand your rights?"
I nod as they put handcuffs on my wrist tightly, the face of everyone I love looking shocked except Danny's. Tears slide down my cheeks as Faith starts to argue with the cops as they pull me out if the house and shove me into the cop car.
Everything is a haze and completely overwhelming, my heart racing and there is a pit in my stomach. I sit in a cell waiting for my lawyer to come save me to pull the money for my bond. I pray that they don't have anything strong and wonder if Maverick had anything to do with what's going on.... all I can do is wait..........
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Chapter 12.1
Danny POV
When the cops leave I get up and make everyone come with me to the Eastside, I looked up the address on Ahmina's phone and we head to his house.
We pull up and him and his gang stand up quickly with guns,
"Danny what the hell are we doing here?!"
Everyone asks as Maverick puts a gun to my head, he looks around for Ahmina as I put my hands up.
"Where is Ahmina?!"
"In jail they are accusing her for murder. And I know you know what I'm talking about."
"Put the guns down."
The gang follows his commands and I take a deep breath.
"What happened?"
"She hasn't said anything she wont say anything! You need to do the right thing Maverick, I know you love her!"
Maverick looks at the ground and Jax yells
"What the fuck is going on?!"
"Its none of your business till Ahmina makes it your business chino!"
"You need to help her Maverick, if you ever really loved her you will do the right thing. This secret has tore her apart okay?!"
"Okay! Okay! I'll fix this okay! Get the fuck out of here now!"
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Maverick POV