Deep Down

Apologize

I've been twitching a lot lately, I'm not sure why. But it's been a little over a day, and the only one who's been looking for me is Aiden and Dakota. Watching from above is what I've been doing, seeing who really cares and who doesn't. I know for a fact that Vale and Devina are both worried, but decided that getting resources were more important. I understand and respect that.

My emotions have been up and down. Violent, depressed, happy, then violent again. Maybe it's time for me to go back now, and properly apologize. I'm being a coward by avoiding the issue, so I have to come up with a way to meet them again. Gosh, I'm treating it like I haven't seen them for years.

I took a deep breath, feeling the fresh air enter my lungs and come out. I wasn't prepared but I know that I have to do it. The sun was just under the middle of the sky, confirming that they didn't know my whereabouts for a little over a day. Now that I decided that I was going to do this, right now my nerves are frying.

Biting my nails, and walking through the thick wood with troubled thoughts flooding into my mind. What if they don't want to see me? What if they hate me? Okay Hailey, stop that. You'll never know until you come up to them and face the situation. The hideout was in sight and with every step my heartbeat increases. I put myself in this situation. Being too lost in thought I didn't realize there was a tree in front of me and I walked straight into it.

"Oop!" A small noise of surprise escaped my mouth. My hands flew up to cover my mouth, but it was too late, I heard the sound of dry leaves being stepped on.

"Hailey...?" I heard a small whisper from a male. Not the high pitched one from the littlest in the group, but one of the older twins.

I saw Aiden's eyes stare into mine, surprise, and happiness at the same time. It was only a second before I covered his mouth with my hands, stopping him from saying anything further.

"Shh! Don't speak!" I quietly yet harshly told him. He nodded his head in response, letting me know that he understands.

Why did you leave? Are you okay? He mouthed to me while pulling me into a close hug. My arms pinned to my sides. "We are all worried, Dakota hasn't slept." He put his mouth right to my ear, but keeping so quiet I could barely hear.

"I was scared of how you would react, how everyone would react..." I whispered back.

"Let's go back to the cave. Dakota is with Devina and Vale. There no one will hear us. I promise." He gave me one last squeeze, then took my hand and led me back to the crevice. Acting like he didn't know that I knew where it was.

I followed him silently, wondering what he was thinking. What he thought and saw me now. Had I screwed up things even more by going? Birds were singing around us, making the atmosphere look far more peaceful than it actually is. I did have to admit though, it relaxed me just the tiniest bit.

It wasn't long before we arrived. He didn't know that I've been watching from a distance, okay that sounds creepy but I didn't want to lose track of where they've been going. Sitting down near the wall, he nodded his head downwards, motioning for me to sit across from me. I obeyed and sat where I did. My legs crossed and my hands resting in my lap, eyes down.

"Alright let's start here, why the hell did you do that to Devina?" He asked angrily.

"I don't know, she brought up things about my past. A part of me knows it true but I cannot believe it. She didn't have to tell me so harshly and that wasn't the time, I guess. I don't know how to explain it, Aiden."

"That doesn't mean that you have to do that goddammit! Everyone is more on edge than they were before. How did you even manage to do that to her?" He was almost shouting.