DESPERATE 💔

chapter 10

• Beautiful things happen to those , who have a beautiful heart •

Even if every soul on this planet tells me to believe it ,

I wouldn't it's just the sweet lie used on people who may or may not lack perfect looks .

Judge me all you want for saying this statement but it's the bitter truth .

No matter how many times people tell me I am a lovely or beautiful person with a beautiful heart .

I ain't gonna give in because I know it ain't true .

After all one of the sole reason
why Chris left me was because I was ugly .

I have lost count on the number of times I have been picked on cause of looks.

Is it my mistake that I look like this ?

Am I supposed to starve to loose weight ?
apply layers of foundation to hide the acne and bad skin ?

I'm fed up of pretending that it doesn't affect me because it does a lot more than anyone could imagine .

I have so many problems in life and have gone through some stuff
but I still believe that I have actually gone through nothing .

I have parents, friends, I go to a good school and have a variety of clothes too.
Unfortunately alot of people aren't lucky enough to have it.

I don't know what is it that I want , I really don't.

I'm not a good person neither internally nor by the outward appearance.

But nobody deserves this stuff, except for me I guess.