Player file 1 : BEN

Crazy

(authors note: this is a warning. This chapter handles degrees of violence/abuse along with hints of child abuse. future chapters may contain that content as well as we begin to dive deep down and find out more about Ben and his past. This fanfic is written very differently. (if you haven't noticed so far) Romance isn't going to be huge or till later on in the chapters as Ben begins to let his guard down and spill his guts to the reader (you) about how and why he's dead and haunting a game. If Abuse, violence, and child abuse/hints of aren't something you can stomach then you don't have to read this. I don't want to trigger/cause discomfort. If you know you can handle it, then I really hope you can enjoy this deep dive on this character and story)  

Months pasted for the human girl and electronic spirit. Months of arguing, going through paper work, and faking a 'happy relationship' in front of the humans friend when she visited. It went well at first, but it turned quickly and became torturous. The spirit, or Ben, would fly into rages when things didn't happen fast enough and would attack everything around him, and when he finally calmed he would cry, making the girl realize that he acted nothing like his age and had a more childish mind despite all the pain he was exposed to, went through, and inflicted onto others. 

currently, she was sitting at the head of her bed, taking quick glances of the entity from above her laptop, who was sat from across the room. 

She was nervous in his presence, she knew how his anger effected her. How it effected everyone. the bruises and marks left behind from his sudden burst of rage and random tantrums were hard to hide but yet? The girl felt almost lucky to have them. she knew he could kill her when he pleases. She knew he has the power to as he's already played and tempted her faith several times in the past few months. But yet, he always stops for a reason she's yet to understand. she glanced at him again, the simple thought of how childish he looked at the moment as he tinkered away at a rubiks cube he dug up from a box in the attic one night while she slept. It was odd to her to see him so calm, so.. Normal? She couldn't place her finger on the feeling he gave her at the moment no matter how hard she tried to focus on it.  But the longer she tried to figure it out, the more she started to shake and remember how he was acting only a few days before hand when he had flipped into a rage and nearly took her life.

~Flashback~ 

It seemed to be another one of those days. Ben had seemed and been agitated with the constant boringness of not collecting enough data to pinpoint Alex's exact location, along with the lack of game play. 

"Ben, you need to calm down, it's going to take awhile to do this. We still need to track down his credit card so we can figure out where he is. Just chill." Y/n grumbled , slightly annoyed. 

"Chill? You want me to 'chill'? Fuck off Y/n. I'm never going to be free at this point. I'm never going to get out of this shit house!" Ben suddenly shouted, making it obvious he had snapped but Y/n being used to his outbursts. Didn't seem to notice. 

"Um excuse me Ben? 'shit  house'? Last I checked my  home is way better then that hellhole of a game you call 'home'! for fucks sake Ben, I'm trying my hardest to work with you, I'm actually trying to help you. And  that's more then you or Alex or anyone has ever done. So stop being so damn useless!" she shouted back and stood ready to storm off  to the other room when Ben roughly grabbed and pulled her back, slapping her as she turned to face him. The room fell under a heavy silence as she looked  at Ben in shock while he glared at her with a mixture of hatred and anger. '"You disgust me, and you know what happens when something disgusts me?" he asked  in a low tone as the girls fear choked her into silence. 

"Terrible things happen" he whispered closely to the girls ear. Before she could react he grabbed her by the hair and pulled her  up stairs and  into the bathroom, the door shut and locked tightly behind the two the dark spirit  begun filling the bathtub. Before poor y/n could react he had already grabbed her up by the hair again making her scream but she was quickly silenced  by icy cold water  rushing into her mouth and around her head. she struggled to pull or at least loosen Bens death grip on the back of her head but ever scratch, every grip, and every attempted proved to be futile. just as Y/n started to loose consciousness Ben pulled her  face from under the water.

She desperately gasped for fresh air, the burning in her lungs and throat caused her eyes to swell with tears . She began to sob uncontrollably from fear and pain. she squeezed her eyes shut as tightly as she could making Ben snicker in amusement. "This is what happens when children misbehave"  he explained in almost a mocking voice, before pushing the poor  girl away  and making his way out the bathroom. Slamming the door behind him Y/n laid on the floor staring at the door in disbelief and pain. her mind raced at what he said to her.

"this is what happens when children misbehave"

The sentence felt so unnatural, so unlike him, it felt just so.. Wrong. Like he was someone else entirely. she laid there for hours thinking and wondering when realization hit her like a ton of bricks. She felt herself choke up a sob and she quickly covered her mouth as to avoid having him hear her. 

" Oh god Ben, what did your dad do to you?" she wondered out loud, long forgetting her own pain as she recognized his.

~Flashback end~

Y/n shivered at the memory, not from how close she was to actually dying, but from also not realizing sooner how badly Ben really had it. She glanced over her laptop again and couldn't help but notice the still healing scratches and bruises on bens wrists and hands from her fighting him for her life barely even a few days ago. She felt pity and shame weal up inside her stomach as she started to look away when she caught Bens stare making her feel embarrassed for looking for so long, and for being caught. "why do you keep looking at me?" Ben asked innocently as he set the rubiks cube down on the desk and looked at her with relaxed eyes. "Is there something wrong Y/n?" you could hear a distance gentleness in his voice, making you wonder why he sounded like that. and more importantly, why he was speaking like that to you as he had never done it before. It was always a tone of annoyance, depression, or hopefulness. Never something so soft sounding and pitiful has ever escaped his lips till now, making you wonder. Did he feel guilt for what he did to you? 

"I just," you paused and sighed while looking down. "I'm sorry, for what I did to your hands and wrists. I didn't know I hurt you that badly" you mumbled, but just barely loud enough for him to hear you. You looked up at him and he stared back in shock. His gawking expression quickly turned from confusion and shock to worry and disbelief. "No, no Y/n you have no reason to be sorry.  I should be the one apologizing. I tried to kill you!" he exclaimed in shock making you look down. You hated to admit it. But he was right, you shouldn't be apologizing. He should. 

"I don't know why you even have it in your head that you should feel guilt for a literal monster like me. What you did to me was justifiable. You had ever right to attack me back. I was trying to kill you, and you did what you needed to do." He continued making you stare down at your hands as you felt even more embarrassed then before. You were so focused in your self pity, that you didn't even notice him moving closer to you as he spoke. "Don't ever say sorry for something you can't help again. It wasn't your fault. It was mine and I'm so sorry for that. I snapped and I shouldn't have" By time you looked up he was seated inches away from in front of you. your face reddened and he sighed. He took your laptop and set it aside before grabbing your hands in his damaged ones. He stared, seemingly uneasy as this was the first time he had actually touched you without intent to harm you. 

He laughed lightly and awkwardly. "You know, now that I have your hands in mine I have no fucking clue what I'm supposed to do next. I just copied what I've seen in movies in the past and I really don't think you would want me to kiss you" he mumbled sheepishly making you smile and laugh a little. "You're crazy Ben" you stated softly with a half smile. He scoffed and chuckled at himself.

"I know"