If I can't be with you

His Ex

Sophies Point of View

Today R5 was gonna play in Milwaukee. Damn we traveled so far already and the tour isn't even finish soon. I honestly wished to sleep in my own bed again but otherwise I've grown so close to the Lynches and Ratliff and experienced so much, I wouldn't, if I hadn't been on tour with them.

Rydel told me this morning that some friends would join them this day and one of them was Ross' Ex. While she was telling me that she looked at me with curious eyes. I wondered wat she was thinking. Why would I care about Ross' Ex after everything that happened. I kept my distance since our fight. She also told me, that this breakup was really tough for Ross and that he still missed her sometimes.

When it was time to meet up with them you could see that Ross became really nervous. He was pacing around the bus. You can imagine how annoying this is in a bus. We were suppossed to meet them at the venue. As we arrived Ross got out of the bus as first, leaving the rest of us following him. He were looking around, when I heard a female voice calling his name. She came running to him, hugging him tight. Almost clinging on him, I realized annoyed. But to be honest, I was even more annoyed that Ross hugged her back like that, putting his face close to her neck, while he closed his eyes. I wondered why this would bother me. I made up my mind about us. Just working together.

When he opened his eyes I could see tears glistening in his eyes. Immediately I felt bad for him. This girl must have broken his heart. You could see it in his face. He smiled weakly at her and led her into the venue. I followed them. When we were inside both of them just sat some space away from me, talking intensly. A while later they came back to us and I was introduced to her. Her name was Morgan and to be honest she was a real nice person, really cheering up. She was happy that she could see everyone on their tour. Quickly we all were on a randomly chat in our group. Once in a while I had to leave to check if everything was fine with our planning.

I came back into the room to remind them, that they had their sound check now and later on their meet and greet. They left us for the stage. I invited their friends to follow me, so that they could see them during sound check. I was with Ryland, who was checking if with the light everything was okay.

"So Ryland, Morgan and Ross? Did they ever date?" I asked innocent, sounding like I didn't know already.

"Why do you want to know that?" he smirked at me.

"Just randomly asking. They seem pretty close."

"Yeah, they were, but it didn't work out between the two of them. Now, they're trying to be just friends." he said.

"Ross seems pretty hurt by that. At least, thats what his face was saying earlier this day." I said.

"I guess so. He never really wanted to talk to me about that, when I asked him. But he will get over this. I mean, he already is moving on." He blushed, as he said that, then quickly turned away from me.

"What? Who is he into? Do I know her?" I felt a little bit of jealousy inside me, when he said that.

"I can't tell you. I already said to much. I'm sorry." he muttered. I had to leave him for the meet and greet. When I went outside all the fans were already there to make themselves ready for the meet and greet.

"Alright guys," I screamed at them "please, stay calm when you meet them. Soon we will opening the doors and you can line up for the pictures. Please note, that there won't be any touching faces or kissing pictures. Normal poses and hugs are still allowed. While you're waiting in line, there will be a clip board going around, where you can put your questions on it. We will give them the questions, when it comes to the Q&A."

Soon the doors were opened and the meet and greet started. We made it through the meet and greet and the Q&Q without any problems. I went backstage. To be honest, this was the coolest venue we've been so far. They had all sort of stuff. Ross and Morgan were looking through the vinyls. They had some really good music there. I was watching them not saying anything. Rydel came up to me.

"Hey girl, what's going on?" she asked me.

"Nothing." I shrugged, still looking at Ross and Morgan. "Can you tell me what happend between Ross and Morgan? I mean they still look pretty close."

"Well," she said, "they were really close. But at one point she couldn't handle it, that we are constantly away for work. I think she had a big trust issue. One of the other reasons was, that she is older than him and she had different plans for her future." While she said that, she gave me this concerning look. She was older than him. I was older than him. Does that mean anything? I wondered, why I was even thinking about this.

"Hey Guys," Ratliff said, "I would like to have a picture of everyone. Sophie can you take a picture of us?"

"Sure, just sit on that couch there." They all gathered together. Ross was sitting too close to Morgan, for my opinion. Ratliff and Rydel were sitting on the rest of the couch, cuddling with each other. They looked so sweet together. I was happy for them, that they finally admitted their feelings for each other. Riker handed me his phone, so that I could take the picture. While I was looking through the camera, Ross was intensly looking at me. But I avoided his stare.

"Smile." I said and then took the picture.

"So guys, just get ready now, Brandon and Savannah finished their set and Ryland is on stage now. Soon you will get up their." Andre said, when he came in.

"So Rossy, I see you after the show. Rock out." Morgan said with a girly smile. Uuurrrgggh, I felt like I had to throw up. Rossy!!!!!!

"Hey, everything okay with you?" Ross asked me after Morgan left, "You look a little bit sick."

"Yeah ROSSY, I'm fine." I snapped at him.

"Okay, just wanted to be nice." he said hurt. Damn it, he already had a bad day, I didn't need it to make it any harder for him.

"Sorry Ross, look, I'm just a little bit stressed. I didn't want to snapp at you. Go out their rockstar and blow them away." I apologized by calling him by his nickname.

"Alright boss!" he smiled at me. When they left I realized, that I was changing my mind again about keeping my distance from him.