If I can't be with you

What just happened

Sophies Point of View

He kissed this girl. I can't believe it. How could he. I was furious. Just yesterday he tried to kiss me and now he is kissing another girl? What a jerk. All these things were running through my mind while I tried to look normal. Wasn't that easy. He went outside with her, probably kissing even more. When he came back in I glared at him and he had the nerve to smile at me. I just needed to get out of here. I couldn't stand it.

"I'm sorry guys. I just remembered that I have another appointment before tonight. So I have to go now." I invented this lame excuse. I started to walk, when Rydel ran after me.

"Sophie wait, is everything ok with you? You don't look good."

"Yeah, everything is fine. I have other stuff to do. Just go back in there and enjoy your free afternoon. We will see us later." I lied.

"My brother is an idiot sometimes. But I'm pretty sure he likes you." she said to me. I looked starteld at her. What did she know?

"We're not ... I mean, he is not ... There is nothing going on between the two of us." I stammered. I blushed really hard. "We are just working together and this isn't in any way appropriate."

"It is okay, Sophie. I saw the looks the both of you are exchanging. I'm coming with you now and we can talk. Just let me inform the boys and get my stuff. I think  we can need some girl time. If it is okay, I also ask Alexa to come with us." I just nodded. She quickly went inside and came out together with Alexa.

"So what are we doing?" Alexa asked.

"I think we're going for a walk and have some time to chat. Just us girls." Rydel said. We walked along the promenade and soon Rydek asked me.

"So, why did you get so mad at my brother kissing another girl, when there is nothing going on between the two of you?" She smirked at me.

"There is nothing going on between the two of us! I just couldn't spend more time with him. Sometimes he just annoys me so much. I mean, just yesterday he tried to kiss me and now he is kissing another girl." I said. Then I blushed and hold my hand in front of my mouth.

"He did what?" Alexa and Rydel screamned.

"You need to tell us, what happened." Rydel said. I told them everything, even the really embarassing part of me throwing up on his shoes.

"Oh that was the smell this morning. I was wondering if it was Riker, because of his hangover." Rydel said with a disgusted look.

"But I don't get it, why is he kissing another girl today, after what happened last night. And if I understand Rydel right, Ross likes you." Alexa questioned.

"Well, this was probably because of me. He was trying to talk to me about last night earlier this day and I just told him to forget everything and that we should behave like professionals."

"But why?" Ryels asked quietly. "Don't you like him? I mean, it looked different when you stormed out the Ice cream parlor." I sat down on a bench and both girls sat next to me. Rydel was putting her arm around me. I sighed. "What is wrong. Please tell us" Rydel whispered. I looked both in their eyes and could see their curiosity.

"I promised Andre not to fall in love with one of the boys."

"What has Andre to do with it?" Alexa asked, "Are the two of you dating?"

"What? No! But he knows what happenend last time." I almost screamed.

"What happenend last time?"

"I already told you, Rydel, that I was in a serious relationship, that didn't end very well. Well, the guy I was with, was my boss." Both girls went dead silent. I sighed

"I was really in love with this guy. Of course he was older, but even worse, he was married and had a daughter. I know, what you think now of me. It can't be anything, what I didn't already thought of myself. But like I said, I really loved him. And I thought, that he would love me back. To be honest I was in bondage to him. I would have done everything for him. He always told me, that he would leave his wife, but this never happened. When the company found out, that there was something going on between the two of us, he told everbody that I was a stalker and that I made up the whole story. They fired me. After all that, I wasn't in a healthy place. I lost my job and I also thought, that I lost the love of my life. I took me a while to understand, that he never loved me back. Andre and my Dad know each other from their past and Andre is my godfather. So Andre offered me this job, because he knew, that I needed this money to take care of my family. But he also told me, that he wouldn't allow me any relationship to one of the boys. I know that he is worried about me, because of how I felt the last time. I mean I was really depressive. So all I'm trying is to keep my distance to Ross. I can't be with him. But that doesn't mean, that I don't like him or that it doesn't hurt, when I see him with someone else." At the end I cried. Rydel and Alexa were both hugging me and trying to reassure me.

"Wow, this is a lot to process. I understand, why you acting like this. But are you sure, that you want to risk your chance of love and happiness?" Rydel asked me.

"I have to. I can't lose this job as well." 

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