last night i left him with a text before falling asleep.
yes i can meet
i throw on my hoodie, walking into the kitchen, seeing no sign of my dad, only the sight of amber as she sticks her tongue out, waiting for her toast. i grab an apple, taking a bite out of it, making my way over to amber, side hugging her, "i'm going out, i'm gonna tell him how i feel." i watch as her eyes widen and a squeal escapes her mouth. "oh my gosh teej! i'm so proud of you finally getting your ass together! now go get your man." she playfully shoves me. i pocket my phone and leave the house.
i sit on the empty swing, looking at the time on my phone. "teej? it sounded important what's up?"
"oh hey, um i don't i." i take a breath as cyrus sits on the swing beside me. "cyrus i like you a lot and i've been trying to figure out what my feelings are exactly and how to tell you, and i can't hold it in anymore, i feel like how we act around each other, there's something there between us."
"you, you do?" cyrus let out a breath, shaking his head, "i, tj i'm sorry i don't like you like that."
"oh..." i look at the ground, my fingers play with the sleeve of my hoodie, as i try to blink away the tears, i can't cry, not in front of him. "i've just ruined our friendship. how can i be such an idiot. i'm gonna go, i need to go, i'm sorry." i stand up and start walking away from the park, hearing cyrus call out my name.
i slam the front door, running up to my room, "tj? tj what happened?" i hear amber follow me upstairs, knocking on my door before entering.
i feel her hand rub my back soothingly, "teej, what happened?"
"i told him and he said he doesn't feel the same way..." i mumble out. i hear her let out a sigh, standing up. after a short silence i hear the beatles start to play, 'i want to hold your hand'
oh yeah i'll tell you something
i think you'll understand
when i say that something
i wanna hold your hand
i wanna hold your hand
i wanna hold your hand
oh please say to me
you'll let me be your man
and please say to me
you'll let me hold your handi want to hold his hand. and only his. i thought he liked me, i want to be fucking happy, why do my feelings keep screwing me over. i just wanna kiss him, feel something. i guess i'm paying the price for it. all the past mistakes, all the shit things i've done.
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roses bite - tyrus
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