roses bite - tyrus

cyrus| xxi: perfect places

i watch as tj leaves. i want to tell him, i don't know why i'm not. he likes me and i lied. i sigh before jumping off the swing and heading to the diner. "hey cy, anything happen?"

"um yeah... tj said he likes me." i avert my eyes, making sure i don't see buffy and andi's reaction.

"awww that's so cute! glad he finally did it." buffy let out an airy laugh whilst shaking her head.

i eat a tater tot looking confused, "wait what do you mean? you knew?"

"i mean yeah it was obvious, i mean he called you adorable, and most guys don't just do that to mean nothing, plus he told me." buffy smiled.

"what've i done." i put my hands on my head and slam my head on the table, groaning.

"what have you done?" buffy glares down at me, i can feel her eyes burning into my head.

"i may have said i didn't feel the same way. i was scared! he's the first guy that i've liked that likes me back and you know i'm scared of commitment! what happens if i do something wrong - it'll be the end as we know it!"

"cy stop being dramatic!" andi playfully hits my arm.

"cy i'm pretty sure he's in love with you, anything you do he finds cute, he adores you. look just ask to meet up, take him somewhere." buffy shrugs her shoulders.

"what like a date?" okay now i'm panicking.

"i guess. just tell him the truth. you owe it to him." i nod my head, biting my lip. i know what i need to do.

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cyrus:
hey tj? i have so much i wanna say but i wanna do it in person, are you good to meet up? -cy x

teej <3:
sure

no kisses. okay cyrus stop overanalysing, he just was straightforward, at least his not saying no right?

cyrus:
meet me at the gardens near the lake in ten x
read 10:36am

i stand just outside the entrance, he should be here soon and i've never felt as nervous before.

"cyrus." tj jogs over to me, offering a tight-lipped smile.

"let's walk and talk." and so we begin walking around, looking at all the different flowers around us.

"look teej, i'm really sorry at how i reacted, it wasn't my intention. i get scared. scared of things changing, scared that things are moving too fast. and you and i, we're finally in a good place, the best of friends, you're probably my best friend, don't let buffy hear i said that." i let out a small laugh, seeing tj smile slightly. "i this is hard and i don't know why i'm still scared because i know how you feel."

we stop walking and stop in front of a bench, tj nods towards it, and we both sit down.

"tj kippen, i like you, like a lot, i have for a while, and i pushed you away, my flirting was terrible-"

"your flirting was endearing. no seriously you're cute as hell."

"oh? is hell cute then?"

"you know what i mean, but you could make hell cute."

we both laugh and i know we are where we're meant to be, together.

"so um you wanna carry on with that walk?" i shoot you off the bench, feeling my cheeks burn."

"wait cy!" i see tj now standing too, inching closer to me. my brain fires through all the possible outcomes, as i feel tj's arms wrap around me, and of course i hug back. i feel him lightly place a kiss on the top of my head, and i just feel my heart melt.

eventually we pull apart and carry on walking, at at some point, his hand slips into mine and we don't let go.