Forget Me Not (Nouis)

23rd Petal: The Freaking Feeeels

To say that I was dumbstrucked, shocked, surprised is an understatement. If earlier I can barely breath, now I CAN'T breath. I feel like I'm suffocating. Like I'm being imprisoned inside a very small box and I can't find a way out. I can't stretch my hands, my legs. I can't move. And I honestly don't know why I feel like this.

I wriggled from Louis hold and turned ny back on him and walked a little away from him. I put my hands on knees and bend forward, as if I've just stopped from running for hours. I tried to catch my breath but it's hard. Hard. It took me nearly five minutes before I finally can stand right again.

"What..." I sighed and faced Louis. "What the fuck are you talking about?"

He bit his lip and looked away. "It's true."

I can't believe what I'm hearing right now. Louis? And me? Borfriends? No fucking way. And so I voiced out what I think about what he said- "No fucking way."

But he's quick to reply. "Yes fucking way Ni. Yes fucking way."

"How.." I threw my hands up in the air, frustrated. I shouted at him when I spoke again. "How could that possibly happen?! It can't! It just... Can't."

He didn't answer, just looking up in the sky as if it's the most beautiful thing he's ever seen and he can't seem to tear his eyes away from it.

"Why?" He finally croked out.

"Because... I'm dating someone else." And by saying that, I felt my knees wobble.

He immediately turned towards me but still calm. "Harry?"

"Y-yes." I wish I can just find a- there. A bench. How awesome is this? A bench on the rooftop! I really love this hotel!

I walked towards the bench and sat down. This little conversation of Louis and I's making me feel weak. I don't exactly know why and that thought just infuriated me more. Why does it seems like I don't know anything now?

Louis followed me and sat beside me, though he kept a fair distance between us and I'm very thankful for that.

"You did date Ni. But it never got to that part where you guys became official." He started to explain.

Wait, what?

"Wait, what?"

He looked at me. "We were dating. No actually, I'm already your boyfriend then when you had an affair with him. You ended it though after say three or four months?"

"W-why... Are you saying that I cheated on you?!"

He smiled sadly at me. "I never accused you of doing that but you always assumed the you did."

What?

Wait wait wait wait. Lemme get this straight. So I'm dating, no, so Louis had been my boyfrie.d for three years now and I cheated on him with Harry but I ended it with Harry after a few months and...

"It's hard to accept. You may or may not even believe me. But Ni please think about it. And... And if ever it suddenly came to you that I'm saying the truth then come to me and I will explain more. Just for now, think about the possiblity of me saying the truth. Please."

He reached my hand, held it and squeezed it. Tight. And suddenly I felt stronger, happier and more... Contented. And I tried to suppress my smile from showing. I mean duh, he just said something so incredibly unbelievable and he might have been fooling me all this time and I WILL smile at him? No freaking way.

I was about to nod at him, to agree at thinking about what he said but then I remembered to ask them. "Why now Louis? I mean, it's been a long time since the accident and you only told me now. You might've sound more... Believable if you told me earlier."

He shook his head slightly and smiled at me humorless. "I don't... Jealousy Niall. I thought I could just wait for you to have your memories back and then you know, be happy and all. Because I believe that you'll still remember Niall. But then... But then Harry happened."

Oh. Oh.

He shook his head again, as if he's trying to cast away thoughts that are swarming in his head. He looked troubled and determined when he looked at me again.

"Okay Louis. I'll... Think about it."

"Thank you."

One last squeeze with my hand and he stood up and walked away. Leaving me alone again, with my thoughts and worries and doubts and loneliness. I looked up at the sky. Stars and the moon shined so bright, they look like they could light up everything.

I wish they could light up my mind.

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A/N

Hey so I saw the 'Where We Are' concert film yesterday and it's pure awesomeness! I specially love the interview part because Louis is just so loud and talkative and funny. I missed that Louis so yeah. I was fangirling and screaming so much during the entire film lol. And the parts where they sung 'Don't Forget Where You Belong', 'Right Now', and 'Little Things' made me cry like the feels man, THE FEELS.

Anyway, here's the Chapter uhm, 23. Right. Haha. Hope you enjoy it though it's kinda short. Updates might be more often because as I said in the last chapter, one month break. YAY!

Vote and comment if you liked it and I will give you lots of loveSSSS! Ha!

Sorry for the typos and grammatical errors.