Forget Me Not (Nouis)

29th Petal: I'm a Disgusting Irish Leprechaun

This chapter probably contains more uhm mistakes because didn't proofreaded it soooo....

Sorry for the typos and grammatical errors.

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Last show here in Ireland. That's a total of three shows. After the two-day break, Paul said that we're gonna have a last show here which is really depressing. I wanna get out of this country. I wanna escape this place. I feel like this place is intoxicated, poisoning my mind slowly. I hate myself. I never knew you can despise yourself this much. So much hatred for myself. I'm really surprised I haven't killed myself yet ha.

I haven't talked with Harry after breaking down in front of him. I am ashamed. Ashamed that I cried so much in his presence. Am never one for showing other people my weakness, nah. Not really my style. I don't want pity. I don't like pity. And what really sucks is Dad heard our conversation so he talked to me afterI made Harry left.

*Flashback*

"Niall." Dad knocked on my room door three times. I wiped my tear stained face before letting out a scratchy "Come in Dad."

He opened the door and looked at me. He seem uncomfortable and like he's contemplating what he should do next. I stayed looking down,  not meeting his eyes. After a minute or two, he finally cleared his throat and closed the door.  He walked towards me who's sitting on the bed and sat on it himself.

"I heard your conversation with Harry," He started. My head snapped to his direction,  my face surprised and panicked. "I'm sorry, didn't meant to eavesdrop."

I shook my head slowly. "Nah, 's okay."

I don't like people listening to my conversation especially if it's the kind of conversation I just had with Harry and especially if the one who's listening is my Dad, but there's nothing I can do more right? I mean, I can't hide anymore. I'm just really tired of all the pretending and stuff and he's my Dad... He have the right to know that his son is a fuck up and just got lied to by one of his bestfriends, right?