Forget Me Not (Nouis)

44th Petal: Art of Letting Go

Eleanor opened the door to the hotel room. She looked around, just to distrcat herself with everything that's running on her mind. She caught Louis' faint smell, this is definitely Louis' room. She shakily closed the door again. This room is big. There's another room for the bedroom. It's like a small house. She took small steps towards the bedroom. She took deep sighs multiple times before finally managing to open it and there she saw Louis standing and looking through the roof-to-floor window, hands crossed in front of his chest, staring at nothing.

And in that moment, he looks glorious to Eleanor. And this may sound absurd and harsh but seeing Louis this sad made Eleanor see him more beautiful. The way his lips are pursed trying to stop the quivering, his nose red, his eyes watering andshining against the afternoon sun... It is the sad kind of beautiful.

"I might be Niall, y'know." Eleanor said, a little surprised Louis didn't even spared a look when she opened the door.

Louis let out a sad chuckle, "Niall will never come back. He's a man of his words, Niall. When he say that he'll leave, he'll leave."

Everything about Louis right now screams sad.

El stayed on the door frame, not daring to go any further. How can she? All this time she'd been Louis bestfriend. Secret-keeper. Counselor. But right now it seems like she's a stranger, and taking one more step would make her nothing.

"I shouldn't do this... We're fucking engage already. I'm so sorry-"

"You're still in love with him."

It's not a question. It's statement. And both of them know it's true.

"Love must be blind El," Louis started. "Because after all this time, after everything he had done to me... Yes, I'm afraid I'm still in love with him. And I feel fucking stupid for being this blind but I. Can't. Stop. It."

Eleanor sighed. "I don't think it's about being blind."

Louis didn't respond so Eleanor continued. "I think it's the opposite. It's having your eyes open about everything. It's about seeing all the flaws, all the wrongs and still finding an excuse, a reason to still love that person."

Eleanor sighed and continued, not allowing Louis to say anything. "It's about seeing and accepting. It's about having ninety-nine reason to let go yet still finding that one sole reason to hold on."

Louis turned around to face her, puzzled as to where their conversation is leading to.

"And my eyes are open Lou. That despite the fact that the person I love will never love me back, I still hold on to him. But... there are some limit. And what happened right now, right here is my limit. This doorway is my limit. I cannot go any further..."

Louis furrowed his eyebrows, his eyes watering again, slowly realizing what Eleanor si trying to say. "El, no-"

"No, no, no. Louis if you really care for me, if I'm really important to you, you would let me do this. Youy know, you should."

El paused for a while before smiling. "Go get him, Tiger."

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A/N: I like Eleanor tbh. But I don't ship Elounour or Eleanour or whatever that is that they call their ship and NEITHER Larry. I ship Louis with whoever he wants to be shipped with (okay so maybe I ship Louis and Eleanor a lil bit but because she's his girlfriend okay). And if ever Larry is /real/ and they said so that they're in a relationship with each other then that's the only time I will ship them.

And I know there is no enough excuse or reason for me to update reaaaally late but it's our midterm exam and at the same tiem or professors made us do a lot of things. Like, excsue me sirs and ma'ams, can't you see that it's our midterm and we have lots of things to review and it's really rude of you to have us make reportings, research papers and novel analysis, etc at the same time? Ugh.

Two more chapters and this is done. The 45th petal, by the way will be private because ahehfSMUTjhjh and yeah. HAhahahahahaha.

Vote and comment if you liked it and thanks for reading!

Sorry for the typos and grammatical errors.

P.S.: NOUIS SHARING THE SAME BOTTLE OF WATER ASGDHSLJKFHJH AND LOUIS HANDING THE BOTTLED WATER TO NIALL THEN NIALL GAVE IT BACK TO LOUIS THE NLOUIS DRANK ON IT OMFG CAN I DIE NOW HAHDGH THAT'S LIKE INDIRECT KISSING!!!!!11!!1!