Forget Me Not (Nouis)

33rd Petal: Freaking home

@NiallOfficial: I've had my run, baby I'm done, I gotta go home...

"Hey Ni," I looked up from my phone and looked at Louis who's standing in front of me. I smiled at him and he took a seat across me.

"Hi." I replied shortly.

"How are things going?"

"Fine. Great." Lies. 

"The other lads are worried about you." They shouldn't. 

"Really? Why?"

"Well, you've gotten more quiet. You know, always inside your own little world."

"Oh. Is that so... I'm sorry I'm worrying you guys but I'm fine, really. Just need some quiet time." I'm not. 

I turned my attention back to my phone and started fumbling with it, pretending that I'm doing something just so Louis can take the hint that I wanna be alone. I know that this is not healthy. And that this will only make me more depressed but isn't being with them saddened me too? Oh, I'm such a drama queen.

"Niall.. Will you look at me please?"

Here we go again. That high pitched voice, softly speaking to me. Who can resist that? I sighed and turned to look at him again.

"Please tell me, do you have a problem?"

Do I? Yes I do have. A lot. And big too.

"None Louis. I swear." I said, not looking at him directly in the yes. And I know that right there and then, I was found out.

"Bullshit. Niall why won't you talk to me? Tell me what's wrong! It's not like I'll judge you, I just wanna know what's happening with you. What's happening inside your thick head. I just... Please open up with me."

"I will tell you if there's something wrong Louis. But right now, there's none so please stop worrying." I insist. Funny how good at lying I am now.

He put his hands on his face and sighed repeatedly. "I don't wanna fight with you-"

"And neither do I Louis-"

"But I know there's something wrong-"

"Stop insisting that there is-"

"So why won't you fucking tell me?!"

"Just stop okay?! Stop! Fine, there is something wrong! But it's not like I can tell you, can I?! If ever there's something wrong I can't tell you I mean, what's even the use?! You can't help me Louis okay? You can't help me! No one can but myself so just stop!"

And I ran out of the tour bus leaving Louis inside and I know that I hurted him. But I have to do it. I have to push him away from me. Because I'm a posion to him. And I don't want to kill him.

~**~ 

"This one's good. Niall sing this one, will 'ya?" Zayn said and showed me the screen of his phone. Someone tweeted the song that I would like to sing and they (the one who tweeted) included that I should sing it. Somehow, I have a guess that it's not really a fan who tweeted it but a staff. Oh well.

"Hey, I love that song!" I said.

"Michael Buble, everyone!" Harry announced.

I strummed my guitar and started playing.

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home, mmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know