Forget Me Not (Nouis)

38th Petal: Now I know!

"I mean seriously! When it's the other people's song who wins, the one who'll be singing is the artist who sung the song not the song writer but when it comes to my song... ugh!" I ended my rant and let my head- or let's say face- fall flat on the table with a loud 'thud' not caring if anybody is looking at me.

Ed patted me on my back comfortingly while the boys chuckled. "You know how this industry works Ni. It's the first time you appeared after a year, of course they would want to show you performing live in their award show for the first time in forever."

"You're such a Frozen geek Ed." Teased Calum and they all chuckled but I just kept whining.

You see earlier, this man - I guess he's a crew or something- came to me and said that if ever one of my songs (Viva La Vida and Need You Now) wins as the Song of the Year I have to perform it live right after receiving the award and that's just so fucked up man! Because for the other nominees, if they won, the artists who sung the song will be the one performing it not the song writer! Gods!

"They suck." I muttered.

~**~ 

"And the award for the Best New Artist goes to... 5 Seconds of Summer!"

I stood up and clapped my hands loudly, proud of these boys who are looking at me too. They hugged me one after another before finally going onstage and that made me swell with proud more. And I don't want to sound cocky or anything but I'm really glad they all hugged me like they were all so thankful to me.

"Another award boys!" Luke said while looking at the other three. "Just like what we always say, we will never reach- have this- if not for the fans who constantly support us. Thank you so so much!"

"To the management, thank you so much!" Calum intercepted.

"And of course to Mr. Niall Horan who is here," Ashton said and the crowd just roared and clapped loudly at the mention of my name and I can feel everyone looking at me and I know my ears are already red because I can feel them getting hot. "It's the very first time he's seeing us accepting an award and to see how proud he is for us right now, we've never felt more better!" And I felt Ed clapped my back congratulating me and I saluted at him.

"Thank yo uso much to the fans, to the management and most especially to Niall!" Michael said in an endnote and kill me if that wouldn't make you feel so happy!

They climbed out of the stage and when they reached our table, they hugged me again one by one.

"Congratulations! I'm so proud of you!" I exclaimed and they all smiled at me big.

"We know! We're so proud of ourselves making you proud too!" Luke exclaimed back which made me laugh.

"Don't be so happy though, Nialler. Up next is the... dundundun dun! Song of the Year!" Calum teased and I immediately frowned.

"Do you have to remind me?" I said.

"Of course."

I pouted and turned away from them only for my gaze landing on these four lads looking back at me. I felt my eyes widening and my cheeks getting hot. Turn away Niall, turn away! But I can't! Oh for god's sake damn it! Why can't I turn away? Oh fuck. Turn away! I stared at them and they stared at me and that's all that happened for like a minute or two before someone held my chin and turned my face towards his direction- Ashton.

"That's not really... healthy, Ni." He muttered. I frowned at him and tap away his hand. And we're all silent for a while.

"Do they know?" Ed asked, whispering so the others can't hear.