It's Complicated, Okay?

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OWENS POV
I woke up to Amelia shaking me. I opened my eyes and she was crying hysterically. I immediately sat up.
"Mia what's wrong?" I said.
"I-I Owen I don't know," she said crying. Her breathing was getting really bad and I was panicking.
"Amelia just calm down and tell me what's wrong," I said.
"I-I don't feel good," she managed to get out.
"Okay, just breathe okay?" I said and grabbed her hand.
"I can't," she said crying.
"Yes you can Okay?" I said, "but you need to breathe okay." She got up and ran to the bathroom. I followed her and when I tried to open the door it was locked.
"Amelia," I said.
"Owen stop," she said.
"Amelia open the door," I said.
AMELIAS POV
I was having a panic attack and I was freaking out. I locked myself in the bathroom because I didn't know what to do. I was hysterically crying because I was feeling so overwhelmed and crushed by my mom's words today.
"Amelia open the door," Owen said.
"Owen go away," I said crying. I was leaning up against the wall and I curled into a ball. I really didn't want Owen to go away, but I didn't want him to see me like this.
"Amelia I will take the door off the hinges," he said.
"Owen go away!" I said.
"I'm getting the screwdriver," He said.
"I know you aren't," I said, "because you don't want to put the door back up."
"Amelia can you just open the door please?" He begged. I thought about it and figured that maybe I should talk to him. I got up and unlocked the door. He was standing on the other side and I felt so bad because he had such a worried look on his face.
"I'm sorry," I said.
"Mia just talk to me," he said sympathetically
"I'm scared," I said, "I feel so overwhelmed and while you were away it was super scary because I didn't think you were gonna come back in time and I was going to be in labor alone and now you're back which is great but I still feel overwhelmed because we still have a kid on the way and I don't know what to do and I feel like I'm going to be a bad mom and I'm unprepared and I'm so stressed and work is so much and I just feel so overwhelmed and stressed and worried and I don't know if I can do it Owen and I keep having panic attacks and I don't know what to do." I said crying and he hugged me tightly.
"It's okay Mia, it's okay to feel overwhelmed and stuff I just wish you would talk to me more than just shutting me out," he frowned.
"I know I'm sorry," I said, "it's just hard."
"It's okay," He said.
"And what my mom said didn't really help," I said and wiped my tears.
"I'm sorry," he said and kissed my forehead.
"I just don't think I can do it," I said crying, "Owen what if I'm a bad mom?"
"Mia where is all this coming from? You're not going to be a bad mom honey," He said and hugged me.
"But what if I am?" I cried.
"You will be a good mom I promise mia," he said and kissed me softly, "you're going to be an amazing mom."