Made by fate

Chapter 10: Nandito lang ako

Jayleen POV

'What were they doing together?'

Isip parin ako ng isip. Anong ginagawa ni Steph at Bryce kanina sa Starbuck's na magkasama? Anong pinagusapan nila? Bakit sila nagtatawanan? Coincident lang na nagkita sila? Or date?

Erase.. Erase..

Ano ba 'tong pinagiiisip ko. Bakit naman sila magda-date eh hindi naman sila. At tsaka imposible.
Nasosobrahan na siguro ako sa panonood ng korean dramas.

"Kanina pang malalim ang iniisip mo. Mind to share it?" Tanong sakin ni Tom.

Nandito kame sa loob ng kotse nya, sa tapat ng bahay namin. Pagkatapos nung nakita ko kanina, naging tahimik na ako at nawalan na ng gana kaya inuwi na ako ni Tom.

I feel sorry, he wanted to spend time with me tapos bad mood pa ako.

Pero anong magagawa ko? Yun lang ang nasa loob ng utak ko eh.

"Wala, don't worry." I faked him a smile.

"Okay.."

Huminga sya ng malalim at hinarap ako.

"Hmm.. Kokak.."

"Hm?" Tiningnan ko naman sya habang nakakunot ang noo ko.

"Ahh.. Remember that I'll always support you no matter what. You can cry on my shoulder, you can talk to me whenever you want, I'll listen. I want to be part of your dreams. I want to be part of your life."

"Huh? What do you mean?" Nagtatakang tanong ko. Ano ba ang pinagsasabi nitong lalaking to? Bat bigla syang nagda-drama?

"Jayleen Kyra Aquino..-" he looked straight to my eyes "- I like you."

"Ano?!" Napasigaw ako.

"I like you so much, Jay."

Hindi ako nakapagsalita. It's like there's a lump in my throat.

"I'm sorry kokak. I never thought na magkakagusto ako sa'yo. It's just happened. Mula nung bata pa tayo. I liked you when you smiled. I liked you when you laughed. I wanted to kill those kids who made you cry, I wanted to hug you every that time. You were so cute when you were getting angry. I really liked you since then. And nung nagkahiwalay tayo? Tang*na. I really missed you. Maluko luko na ako sa Amerika. Binilang ko lahat ng araw na magkalayo tayo. I wanted to come back here in Philippines as soon as possible just to see you and hug you."

"I'm sorry."

Pinakinggan ko lang sya. I'm shocked. Hindi ako makapaniwala. Ayaw ko syang saktan kase mahalaga sya sa buhay ko. At tsaka, sino ang magaakala na may gusto sya sakin? Ganun ba ako ka manhid na hindi ko napansin? Kung sabagay, bata pa lang kame noon. Mahal ko rin sya.. Pero bilang kaibigan lang. Hindi ko sya kayang mahalin katulad ng pagmamahal nya sakin.. I just can't.

I love Bryce. He's the man of my dreams. I can't love anyone else. But, I can't hurt Tom too, I really care about him. So what am I gonna do?!

"Please Jay, give me a chance. I'll prove you that I deserve you. I'll make you happy. Trust me. Sasaya ka sakin."

Finally, nakapagsalita narin ako. "Tom, it's not that. Look, you're a beautiful person, matalik na kaibigan, I'm really thankful that I met you. The point is.. I can't love you back. I can't love you like the way you love me. Hanggan pagkakaibigan lang ang kaya kong ibigay sa'yo"

"I'm really sorry."

Natahimik sya. He looked so sad. Alam kong masakit, pero hindi ko sya kayang paasahin.