Lams Oneshots

Still with me

Alexander's P.O.V
I walked along the old and rocky path I knew all to well. My feet dragged and my body sagged. The leaves and branches on the trees hung low as if sad. As if they knew where the were growing. Well where the used to grow. They were no withered along with the flowers at my feet. The long weeded grass brushed my legs and I let out a long, drained sigh.

I passed the headstones that were littered with names, messages, gifts and quotes.

'Elizabeth Walsh, loving mother of Thomas II and Sofia Walsh and wife of Thomas Walsh. Loved by all'

I read that gravestone as I passed and sighed. Flowers littered all around it. I hadn't even know Elizabeth Walsh. She seemed like a nice lady and yet she was  one to die so soon.

I looked over at two kids running towards the gave followed by a tall man. The kids one male and one female    carried flowers. The male's dark brown hair was cut short and he wore pristine clothes although the bottom of his trousers were dusted with muck. The female wore a light yellow dress which completed her blonde hair cut up to her shoulders. The dress reminded my much of Eliza's sister Peggy. The tall man with the same hair as the male kid was giving a weak smile to his kids but pain was as clear as day on his face."

"Thomas, Sofia and Thomas Walsh" I muttered to myself sadly as I gazed at the family.

Elizabeth's husband looked up at me and gave me a knowing and sorrowful look with a small comforting smile. I half heartedly returned it.

I continued on my path until I finally reached where I had came for.

'John Laurens'

I stared at the headstone not wanting to read more. Flowers were planted around it along with three pints of Sam Adams Lafayette, Hercules and I had planted.

Gently I placed myself down against the grave. Sitting next to it.

Sitting next to him.

I leaned my head back and thought about his face. His green eyes that would light up when he smiled. His freckles scattered across every corner of his face. The loving gaze I once used to see.

"Hey John" I broke the silence "sorry that I haven't come in awhile. Phillip's been causing a bit of a commotion. It's crazy but you know he looks a bit like you. Sometimes I think you may have had an affair with Eliza but then I realise how much of a closet case you were. I can't say much about myself either if I'm honest but the times are not with us my friend."

I took a shuddering breath. Blinking back tears.

"We miss you and I hope you know that. Lafayette, Hercules and I. It's not the same without you. You always brought joy to everything. With your strong beliefs and positive attitude. I guess that's what stole my heart. Sometimes I wonder why you fell for me or why Eliza did... or why Angelica did. I mean you did always say she had a thing for me. If times were different John none of that would have mattered."

I let the tears flow down my face freely.

"If people weren't against us we could have been together in public. We could of got married and adopted a child. We could have saved you from death."

I sighed. Who was I even talking to? Did I really believe he could hear me? I didn't really know anymore.

All I could do was hope he was still with me.

John's P.O.V
Alexander was back once again. I smiled at him as I leaned against my gravestone. Of course he couldn't see me. He glanced down at another grave and then at a family.

He arrived next to me and just gazed at the grave. Then he slithered down to the ground sitting next to the gravestone. I sat next to him.

"Hey John" He finally spoke "sorry that I haven't come in awhile. Phillip's been causing a bit of a commotion."

I laughed at the thought of little Phillip. I had seen him a few times. It was crazy he looked a lot like me.

As if reading my mind Alexander spoke "It's crazy but you know he looks a bit like you. Sometimes I think you may have had an affair with Eliza."

I scoffed at the thought. It was bad enough having to marry a woman but to have an affair with one. God what effort that would be.

Alexander continued "but then I realise how much of I closet case you were."

I laughed at that he wasn't wrong.

"I can't say much about myself either if I'm honest but the times are not with us my friend."

I frowned. He was right. The times were most certainly not with us. More like disgusted by us.

He let out a shaken breath. His eyes watery.

"We miss you and I hope you know that. Lafayette, Hercules and I."

I smiled at the thought of my friends and glanced down at the Sam Adams.

"It's not the same without you. You always brought joy to everything. With your strong beliefs and positive attitude. I guess that's what stole my heart."

I grinned at the thought. Me stealing the Alexander Hamilton's heart. Not many managed to do that. Sure flings here and there but his heart no.

"Sometimes I wonder why you fell for me..."

"Um because you're perfect" I spoke aloud even though no one could hear me.

"or why Eliza did... or why Angelica did. I mean you did always say she had a thing for me."

"Uh duh" I laughed.

"If times were different John none of that would have mattered."

Tears started to stream down his face and I wanted nothing more then to wipe them away. To kiss him and tell everything was going to be okay.

"If people weren't against us we could have been together in public. We could of got married and adopted a child. We could have saved you from death."

He let out a sigh like he didn't really get any purpose.

"Oh Alex" I touched his face but he had no reaction "I'm still with you."