Auri's POV
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I'm done. I can't take it. The names. The bullying. It's like I'm trapped in my own brain and the walls are closing in. I wake up next to Luks and get up all this information swarming through my brain.
I can't do this anymore a loud screech goes off in my head and I fall to my knees holding my arms across my stomach. I feel like I just swallowed a giant pill without water
I gasp for air. I look at the old cuts on my wrist and remember how good it felt. My head spins and collides with the wooden floor.
I wake up to me back in bed. And at that moment I wish I would have died. I wish it would all just stopped. Memories from my forbidden past started to haunt me.
I rolled over, Luke wasn't there, I got up and smelled something burning, I smiled as I realised it was Luke making breakfast. He ran towards me. "You must have fallen out of bed this morning, I lifted you back up" I smiled. "Yea, I fell" I went over to the couch and sat down.
He walked over his ocean blue eyes seemed sad, "so um, the eggs didn't work" "I'll call for pizza" He smiled his big toothy smile. I got up feeling an invisible wind push me backwards, I hold onto the side of the couch for support. My parents. My childhood. My life. Why am I still here. It's like an invisible rope was pulling around my neck. I wish it was.
I go into Luke's room and go to the part of the closet I always use. I find my small music box and open one of the drawers revealing a glasses box. I open it slowly with shaking hands and pick up a old rusty warn razor.
I think of how useless I am. I cringe at each cut as the blade lashes into my skin, each one means something, my scars are all the things that are wrong with me, but they are fading. The thing is. They need to be renewed. Those feelings of stupidity and worthlessness have returned. The red beads turn into rivers of deep scarlet red. I breathe a sigh of relief and sit in the middle of the closet for what seems like an eternity.
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A/N
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Adolescence
Romantikad·o·les·cence. noun \ˌa-də-ˈle-sən(t)s\. the period following the onset of puberty during which a young person develops from a child to an adult. synonyms: teenage years, teens, youth; luke-played by Luke hemmings auri- played by whoever YOU want
