Adolescence

caraphernelia

A/N

im so sorry i havent been updating. school is getting extremely stressful, Hope you enjoy the next chapter, Shit is about to go down

We sat on the couch watching the blank Tv screen and the sunrise

AURI'S POV.

I feel disgusting. sick to my stomach.

i excuse myself from the couch holding back tears fighting tp leave my eyes. I ate too much. What the hell is wrong with me? i run to the bathroom and lean my head over the toilet. This position is too familiar. im disgusted at myself for eating. And disgusted that i do this to myself. i run my hand through my hair tearing some out. The blonde hair falls to the floor gliding through the air.

What the hell. i was just fucking fine. until all the sudden i crash and burn. i take my two fingers and put them on the side of my cheek preparing for what is going to happen. i push them back farther until i lose enough that i feel like i didnt eat a thing. nothing happened. Like i didnt eat

Luke comes running in massaging circles into my back. "are you okay" he says grabbing the hairtie from my wrists and pulling my hair into a pony tail.

"im never okay" i say falling from my knees onto my hip. Lying there on the stone cold floor staring at the ceiling.

luke grabs my hand and helps me up. he helps me to the couch and turns on AHS.

"So um, the boys were going to stay the night, but im going to call it off. i want you to be comfortable.

he asks sitting next to me with his hands on his knees.

"nonono its fine, it will be fun, i have a feeling ill be better by then, I fake a smile and sit up next to him.

"life sucks"

i say staring at Evan Peters.

"it really does" Luke says sniffling and kissing me on the cheek

"if i didnt have you, i wouldnt be here" he whispered to himself

I continue to watch AHS, pretending i didnt hear a thing.

LUKE'S POV.

The boys finally arrive around 5:00 p.m michael holding 3 boxes of pizza.

calum runs in and sits on the small island in the kitchen, michael sits beside Auri who is calmly watching AHS.

"if i was gay i would have the biggest fucking crush on Tate" calum says with a straight face.

"hey, dont fucking swear" Ashton points at Calum wiht his abnormally long fingers

Michael scoots closer to auri, setting the pizza on the coffee table. "Dont try anything or i will shave your head in your sleep" i say sitting between michael and Auri.

ASHTON'S POV

I watch as everyone eats a slice of pizza. I notice that Auri and i are the only ones that arent eating. i know whats happening. i know why she isnt eating, Probably for the same reason i did. I feel wothless.

My dad left me when i was a small boy, i have been bullied ever since, But that never matters. does it?