retrograde

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"Here's my story-"

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I look down at my chewed up thumbs once again examining them thoroughly

He nods for me to continue.

"Ever science I was little,  I was worthless. Unwanted. Beaten."

I swallow hard at that word

"But your parents are very nice people Auri I couldn't imag-"

I cut him off with a sigh

"They arent my real parents."

He grabs a hold of my hand and raises an eyebrow.

"What do you mean?"

"Can I continue, in getting there" I hold his hand tighter

He nods

"So. MY dad would come home every night drunk. And my mom didn't care about the family either. Though I wouldn't really call us a family. Maybe a family in long lost retrograde. She was always out late. Smoking, doing drugs, selling drugs, selling her body... stuff like that"

I took in a deep breath.

"I didn't know what was happening when I was a toddler, I thought all parent were like this. Then when I got to about age 10 I started thinking that maybe I deserved it."

"I ran away from home while my parents were out. Which was always, and that's when I met you.."

"I wasn't sitting at the top of the slide because I was scared,  but because I was thinking about how I could jump off that would be the easiest way to kill myself. "

"All the beatings and verbal abuse got to me. I wanted it to stop. And I wanted to go to a place where there was no pain."

A tear ran down his cheek

My lip quivered and I started crying hysterically.

"I think w-We need to t-talk about this s-some other time" I stuttered.

He grabbed the back of my cold neck with his warm hands and hugged me as tight as he could.

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A/N

AYYYYEEE. I missed you guyyyss

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