Adolescence

schizophrenia

FLASHBACK-----

"NO" i yelled tears formed pools around my eyes smearing my makeup.

he pushed me down 

"sit the fuck down, you slut!" he screamed. "i held my hands over my ears tightly my muscles tensing up my finger nails stabbing into my skull.

he pulled out a gun.

i screamed loud for help, then realized i was all alone, faced with a monster.

*bang*

END OF FLASHBACK----

I looked down at my wrists in disgust. i pulled down my sleeves farther. 

i listened to the last word of the song they sang.

"Auri, are you okay?" Micheal asked looking down at his feet. i could only attempt a half smirk. "im fine" i reply gazing at my grey wool crewneck that covered my scars.

luke sat next to me wrapping his arms around my shoulders. "i know what fine means Auri" please talk to me, love,

each word was spoken softly into my ear so the other boys couldnt hear.

"guys, im gonna go. I need some time with my girlfriend" he said his dimples growing deeper as he smiled.

"USE A CONDOM!" yelled Ashton

luke walked back to his car with me holding his middle finger behind him at ashton but staring me in the eyes.

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LATER----

"i need to talk to you" i say once we get settled onto his couch in our pajamas me laying my arm on his chest and him drawing small circles on my shoulder with his inde finger.

"anything, love"

i blink away tears

"i have been having certain uhm, flashbacks" my lip quivers awkwardly.

"about what?" he sat up staring at me. looking as if he was trying to find what i was about to tell him in my mind.

"you know i have been depressed" i look at my thumbs which are bitten to nubs.

he pulls my chin up with his finger and says "yes"

"thats it...i- nevermind" i stuttered

"no. no more neverminds, i need to know what happened. i need to know your story, i need to know how to help, i need to know how many times that you needed someone and they werent there. i need to know how to be better than anyone you have ever known because Auri. I love you, i never want you to hurt. i dont want you to go throught this. you are the most beautiful, talented, funny, and perfectly imperfect person i have ever met. and i dont care what other people say because you mean so much to me. i would take my life for you. if you keep hurting yourself, just think about that pain going towards me. because that is exactly what it feels like emotionally. i love you so much god damnitt. it hurts."

he hugs me holding my waist tightly.

i wrap my arms around his neck kissing his cheek softly.

"this is my story-"

-------A/N

TO BE CONTUINUED BETCHES.

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