Afraid Of Love (Namjin)

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KIM SEOKJIN POV
"Okay you are go to go, I have to go have lunch at my school" Han says picking up his stuff, I look up at him "Why don't you have lunch here with me and my friends?" I say.

He smiles "there is not going to be a lot of attention right?" he asks. I laugh "no I promise you" I say, "than I will go with you" he says smiling.

KIM NAMJOON POV
"where is he?" I whisper to myself, "he should be here any second now" Jimin says stuffing his dumplings in his mouth. I look at my watch, "ugh.... Hurry Jin" I say to myself.

My phone starts to buzz in my pocket. I take it out and answer, "Hello?" I ask. "SIR YOUR AIRPLANE IS LEAVING IN 40 MINUTES" the driver says.

"oh... I will be there in a second" I say and hang up.

"I need to leave" I say grabbing my bookpack and hanging it on my shoulder. "but you can't leave until Jin comes" yoongi says, I look over at Jimin.

"Jimin, please give this to him" I say handing him a pink envelope. "I need to go" I say and walk away, "Namjoon!!" Yoongi shouts at me. I just ignore him and run outside, I feel tears falling down my cheek. I bump into someone but keep walking and ignore him.

I wipe them off and get in the car, "are you okay, sir?" The driver asks. "just drive please" I say. He nods and drives off.

KIM SEOKJIN POV (5 MINUTES EARLIER)
"don't worry they are friendly, um.... Expect Yoongi but who cares he is the grumpy grandpa" I say walking to lunch with Han.

"I should move to this school" he whispers. "yeah..... But like the people in this school are really rude and noisy" I say, he nods. I see a kid running with his hoodie up and he bumps into me, he just runs away ignoring me. He looks like Namjoon but I don't know.

We walk in the cafeteria and get some food. We sit down on the table but everyone looks silent and lost in there own thoughts.

"um.... Guys?" I ask worried, Jimin looks up and his eyes are covered by sadness. "what's wrong? And where is Namjoon" I ask.

Everyone looks up at the name Namjoon, "Jimin, just give it to him" hoseok says looking down. "bu-" jimin is about to protest but is interrupted by yoongi, "babe just give it to him, he deserves to know, Namjoon would have wanted that" Yoongi says.

I look at him confuse. Taehyung looks like he is crying on Jungkook's shoulder. Hoseok looks lost and blank.  Yoongi looks blank and sad. Jimin looks worried and sad. Jungkook looks worried.

Jimin sighs and hands me a pink envelope with shaking hands.

I grab it and open it.

ᴅᴇᴀʀ ᴊɪɴ,
ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ʜᴜʀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ғᴏʀ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ᴛʜɪs ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴀʟsᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ sᴛʀᴏɴɢ. ɪ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜɪs ɪɴ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴡᴀs sᴄᴀʀᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʜᴜʀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ɢᴜᴇss ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴜᴛᴄᴏᴍᴇ ɪs ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴍᴇ. ɪ'ᴍ sᴏʀʀʏ ʙᴜᴛ ɪ'ᴍ ʟᴇᴀᴠɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ ᴛᴏ ᴄʜɪɴᴀ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ ᴛᴏ ᴀ ᴜɴɪᴠᴇʀsɪᴛʏ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇɴ ɢᴏ ᴛᴏ ᴀᴍᴇʀɪᴄᴀ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ ᴛᴏ ᴀ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴜɴɪᴠᴇʀsɪᴛʏ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ. ᴊɪɴ, ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴇᴀʟᴇᴅ ᴍᴇ. ɪ ᴡᴀs ɢᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴜsᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴜsᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴜʀᴛ, ʙᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ.  ʏᴏᴜ sʜᴏᴡᴇᴅ ᴍᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡᴀs. ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴʟʏ ᴏɴᴇ ɪ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ᴡᴀs sᴜᴘᴘᴏsᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴘʀᴏᴛᴇᴄᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ᴠᴀʟᴜᴀʙʟᴇ ɢɪғᴛ ғᴏʀ ᴍᴇ. ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴡᴀs sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʜᴀᴅ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴅɪsᴛᴜʀʙɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ..... ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ's ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴠᴀʟᴜᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴄᴀᴛᴄʜ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢs ғᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴍᴇ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢs ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴊᴜsᴛ ʜᴀᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴀᴛ ʟᴇᴀsᴛ ᴛᴇʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜᴀᴛ. ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ.

ʟᴏᴠᴇ, ᴋɪᴍ ɴᴀᴍᴊᴏᴏɴ ❤

"where is Namjoon?" I ask, "he just left" Jungkook says. I get up and run outside while Han calls out for me, but ignore him. I go to the parking lot and see namjoon getting in a car. I try to run after him but he drives off. "Namjoon" I shout but he is already far away.

I try to run after the car but it's too fast and I'm late. I fall on my knees and just let the tears fall down, the tears that show my weakness, the tears for being late to love, the tears that wanted to love, the tears that wanted to say I love you.

I grab the letter and hold it tight on my chest. I was too late to love.

I was too late to say I love you back.

AND THAT WILL BE ALL FOR TODAY, SORRY IF IT SOUNDED RUSHED I HAD TO WRITE THIS AS QUICK AS POSSIBLE TO AT LEAST UPDATE TODAY. THIS BOOK IS COMING TO A END SOON I DON'T KNOW I GUESS LIKE IN 3-5 MORE CHAPTERS. AND SCHOOL IS GETTING CLOSER AS WELL SO I WILL TRY TO FINISH THIS BOOK BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS AGAIN.