40- Divorce

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KIM SEOKJIN POV
"Dad?".........

My father turns around and walks towards me and hugs me tight. I can feel him shaking and I knew he was crying, "I'm sorry son" he whispered in my ears while hugging me tight.

After sometime he pulls back and he was still crying, "Appa What's wrong?" I ask worried. He looks at me and falls down on his knees, his tears just fall down stronger.

I have never seen him in this state, he is usually a guy to hide his feelings and not express them. His state made my tears fall down my cheeks

I kneel down in front of him.

"Dad p-please tell me" I say. He looks up at me and hugs me tight again. "I'm s-sorry..... I'm sorry.... I'm sorry for leaving with that c-cruel woman...... I should have been with you, I should have s-stopped her from h-hurting you" he sobs.

My heart lifts up with hearing those words. "It's okay father" I say, he shakes his head "No, No it's not okay, she hurt you and I promised myself that I will never let anyone hurt you, not even your own mother" he says.

"That why I divorced her" he says looking down. I look up at him.

He divorced her???

"I divorced her.... And we will go to court this Friday that's why I need you to be there, I sued her for child abuse since I found out she mistreated you when you were younger" he says.

Child abuse......

FLASHBACK
I sneaky run to hide behind the couch as I see my drunk mom walking down the stairs almost tripping.

"Come back you worthless piece of shit" she screams. I cover my mouth as tears stream down my face. Don't make a sound, I say to myself.

She walks closer to me, she sees me. "There you are, you little ugly shit" she spits on my face as she grabs me by my collar.

Tears start to fall down as I try to get away from her grip. "P-please E-eomma I didn't mean to b-break your f-flower v-vase" I sob.

"Shut up you little piece of shit" she says as she slaps me on the face. I sob and fall back.

She takes the belt from a hanger. "N-No..... Please  don't h-hurt me" I sob louder.

But she doesn't listen and hurts me more. After she is done with me she throws the belt at me and leaves with a other bottle of whiskey from the fridge.

I sob and stay still because I can't feel my body. It hurts so much. I slowly get up and walk to my bathroom in the room, I look at myself in the mirror and look at myself in disgust. She is right.

I'm worthless......

I'm ugly........

I'm useless........

I'm a piece of shit.......

No body will love me.......































I'm nobody........

END OF FLASHBACK

"I will go to court with you" I say confidently, but I knew inside me fear was welling up. Fear to be in front of a monster. Fear to be in front of the person that hurt me. Fear to be in front of a person that never loved me. Fear to be in front of my mother.

KIM NAMJOON POV
I put my notebook neatly in my bookpack as the bell rings. "Do pages 25 to 28 tonight and turn it in for tomorrow" the teacher says cleaning the whiteboard for her next class.

I grab my bookpack and place it on my shoulder. I walk down the hallways alone.

I haven't made friends yet, I didn't feel like myself. It felt like I was someone different. My mother told me that for me to get a good job, I had to leave behind my old personality.

I had to start being neat, clean, smart, and helpful. And she told me to stay away from bad influence and to not party anymore.

And since I love her I did just like she told me. But I feel alone like nobody cares about me. Soon I will have to move to USA to go to a university there but for now my mom signed me in a private school in China.

Maybe this is how Jin felt in his old school. Alone.

I regret just leaving like that, but I couldn't face him. I couldn't see him in a bad state just in front of me, because I would have never left if I had faced him.

I still love him and if one day I could see him I would totally go and meet him even if that will be the last day I see him.

I just hope he doesn't feel lost anymore and accepts himself.......

SORRY THIS CHAPTER IS SHORT I JUST HAD TO WRITE SOMETHING AND THEN GET OUT OF HERE BECAUSE I DIDN'T WRITE YESTERDAY SO HERE IT IT!!!!!!!!!




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