Big Bang Daydreams

Seungri/ Angel

You are worried and disappointed. Seungri has been very close with you for a long time. You have been worried all along about the people he has been associating with. Most of them gave you a sleazy vibe and made your skin crawl. Whenever Seungri brought any of them around you scurried away as soon as possible. You have warned Ri that his, "friends," didn't seem right. He just shrugs it off as you being overprotective. Then....the worst happened. You have seen the writing on the wall. You have asked Seungri to drop those grease ball, "business associates." He hasn't listened. Now, he's calling you crying. He is devastated. He is broken. He is still your friend.

"Noona," he sobs, "I've been so stupid."

"I know Ri," you sigh.

"I just, I just need you here." He chokes on another sob. "You've always been such an angel to me. Can you come and save me tonight? Jabal? I just need to see your face."

You squeeze your eyes shut, "I can't save you this time Ri. I can be with you, here for you, but I can't save you."

You want to ask him if it's true. You want to believe that he couldn't do any of this. He didn't know about those women being drugged. He didn't consent to something so vile as to letting them be violated. He was fooled and blindsided......right?

"I know Noona. You've always been here for me. I'm so alone right now. Come over. I need you so much."

You agree and make your way to his place. You ring the doorbell and wait. When he opens the door, you gasp. His eyes look sunken in. His face is pale and gaunt. He looks as if he hasn't slept for days. You take a step in and place a hand on each side of his face.

"My God Ri," you breathe, "you look like the dead."

Your eyes fill with tears seeing him like this. He takes your hands from his cheeks and holds them. He pulls you inside gently to shut the door. You let him lead you by the hand to his couch. When he sinks into it he sort of pulls you with him. He wraps his arms around you and pulls you into his chest.  He puts his cheek on top of your head.

"Noona, I've done so wrong," you feel him start to cry.

"Shhh," you rub the arm around your shoulder, "I love you anyway. I hope you didn't do this."

You raise your head to meet his gaze.

"I know you've done something, but I don't know how much. I love you still, and I will love you through this. Don't confess your sins to me right now. Tonight, just let me hold you together." You hug him tight, "It will all come out in the end. Right now, I just want to be with a friend that I love. Ok?"

He nods and hugs you even tighter.

"You really are my angel you know?"

You smile gently, "I know."

I had to write this. Please understand that. I know it's controversial right now, but this is how I feel. Thank you.