Big Bang Daydreams

GD&Taeyang/ Not Goodbye

You watch the man you never got to confess to say his vows to his beautiful bride. Young Bae and Hyo Rin are getting married, today. You had a crush on him for so long. No, you weren't in love. You know the difference. You just always wanted him to like you the way you like him. Now, you will most definitely have to move on. You look at him and smile. If you can't have him you're at least happy that he is happy. He's a great guy, and Hyo Rin is lucky. Then again, Hyo Rin is pretty great too.

The ceremony ends, and the party is about to begin. The happy couple are out on the floor. Young Bae has never looked better, with eyes only for his bride. You feel a tear slide from your eye. A happy one, but a tear. You reach up to dash it away.

"Here, use this," a voice in your ear accompanied by a tissue says.
You know that voice.

"Thanks Ji," you say dabbing your eyes.
Ji Yong, your mutual friend, knew about your crush. He had encouraged you to confess on several occasions. After Hyo Rin entered the picture, he had dropped it.

"You doing ok?" He asks, rubbing your back.

You nod, "Yeah. It's a good day. He's happy. We're all here celebrating. I'm happy."

He side hugs you, "Good girl."

You laugh a bit and take your place in the receiving line. Thankfully, the line isn't incredibly long. Due to the couple being careful who to invite. You finally get to the front when Young Bae gives you a squeezy hug.

"I'm so glad you came! Thank you!"
"I wouldn't miss it. I'm glad to see you so happy."

He lets you go and gives you his big eye smile.
"Thank you, I hope to see you this happy too. Maybe sooner than you think."
You laugh at him and go to congratulate the bride.

The reception begins in full swing, and everyone is having a good time. You're sipping champagne, and mingling. You catch glimpses of the groom now and then. You sigh and nod to yourself. You know you aren't saying goodbye to him forever. You are only saying goodbye to what might have been.

You feel a tap on your shoulder, and turn to a grinning Ji Yong. You smile at him as you swallow your champagne.
"May I have this dance pretty lady?"
He extends his hand and gives you a slight bow.

You giggle, "Of course!"

You set down your glass on a nearby table and let him lead you to the floor. You gently place your hands on his shoulders as he takes your waist. You smile up at him and he blushes a bit. He's so cute when he's shy, but he surely isn't shy with you. You've known each other so long. You giggle a bit and look away.

"I'm glad to see you so happy. I was worried you would be sad."

You sigh,"Well, he and I are just friends. It was just a crush anyway. Nothing ever happened, so I can be happy for him," You look back up at him, "That's how friendship works right? To be happy when they are?"

He nods and pulls you just a little closer.
"That's good. I didn't know you felt that way. I wouldn't want you to be hurt."

You grin,"I'm not hurt. I'm good."

He blushes again and pulls you even closer. If you two get any closer you'll be sharing shoes. This is new to you. He's never been like this with you. He's blushing, and holding you. You begin to blush too.

He whispers in your ear, "Would you like to go outside for some fresh air for a bit?"

You get a slight shiver down your spine from him trailing his slender hand up your back as he whispers. You just nod a bit as another blush creeps up on you.

You both make your way outside and kind of lean with your backs to the wall. You are acutely aware of his shoulder against yours. His hand brushes against yours as he takes a breath to speak.

"So, um, there's something I want to say to you."
You turn your head to look at him.
"Sure. What?"
He blows out a breath and let's his head drop. He takes a second then turns his head to look you in the eye.

"I like you."

Your head spins. This man had encouraged you in your crush on his best friend. He had always been friendly to you. He never once let on to have any feelings for you more than friendship. Now...he's confessing to you.

"Wait...you like me? Like, like me like me?

He looks down again, and nods,
"I really do."

You blink and put your head back against the wall again. You try to think of any time he might have shown interest in you. Then it hits you, how attentive he is toward you, late night texts, always checking on you to make sure you're alright, and generally just staying close to you as much as he can.

"Wow," you breathe,"how did I not notice?"

He looks back up at you,"You liked Young Bae. I just thought I would let that play out first."

You look over at him again, "I...you...WOW."

He chuckles at you, "So...what do you think? Do you think you could look at me now?"

You feel his fingers brushing against yours. Itching to hold your hand. You feel like a fool. You had been pining for someone, and clearly missed what was right in front of your face. You feel your heart speed up as you lace your fingers with his. You let a slow grin spread across your face.

"I think I could manage that."

He gives his big gummy smile, and blushes like crazy as he squeezes your hand.
"Does this mean I can take you on a date now?"

You giggle a little, "Well we are at a wedding already. Will you be my date for this?"

"Arasso," he pulls you into a hug.

You walk back into the wedding together holding hands. Young Bae sees you both and dances over to you. He throws an arm around each of you.
"So what do we have here?"
"Shut up," Ji Yong mumbles.

Young Bae squeezes you both, "Ha ha I called it." He looks at you, "Told you sooner than you think!"

You roll your eyes, "Yeah yeah, go dance with your new wife."

His face lights up," That's right! My wife! I have a wife! Wiiife I gotta wiiiife..." He squeezes you both and dances away again.

Ji Yong squeezes your hand, and gestures to the floor.
"Shall we?"

You two dance all night until he takes you home and gives you a perfect goodnight kiss. Your heart jumps into your throat. You realize, that's who you should've wanted to kiss all along. Now you know....crushes have an expiration date. Sometimes what you needed was there all along.