"I love you. I've always loved you. Even when I was so cruel to you I did. I swear I did"
Jisung writes in his diary about the bullying he's experiencing. Minho's his biggest bully.
Started: 12/25/18
Ended: 5/24/23
So nothing has gotten better, even with my pills. I just got done having a really bad panic attack because of some thunder. It didn't bother me last time but it did this time. My triggers keep changing and I really hate that. I hate that I'm like this. I hate that my mind set has to be like this. I want to blame someone for all the wrongs in my life but I really can't. Everything that happened is my fault. I have all these mental issues because of myself. And I hate that it's effecting me again. I'm not gonna tell my mom that I'm having anotherbad episode because she'll just put me back in therapy. And I can't burden my mom like that. So I'll be a big boy and handle it by myself. What could go wrong?
-jisung 1:31am
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But it might be delayed some days for personal reasons. But mostly I'll be sticking to this schedule 😁
