𝘿𝙀𝘼𝙍 𝘿𝙄𝘼𝙍𝙔 | 𝙈𝙄𝙉𝙎𝙐𝙉𝙂 {𝑫𝑰𝑺𝑪𝑶𝑵𝑻𝑰𝑵𝑼𝑬𝑫}

Diary Entry 39

February 17, 2019, Wednesday

Dear Diary,

I didn't tell the guys about what happened with minho. I figured that he wouldn't want the news out that the bullied outcast kid saw him so vulnerable. And Felix doesn't exactly have the quietest mouth when it comes to people he doesn't like. I didn't even tell johnny. And I find myself telling him everything.

I still don't understand it. Why is it that it's so easy to talk to him? I've told him things that I'm even afraid to admit to myself. Felix still thinks it's because I like him. Seungmin says it's because he's very easy to approach and he's a good listener. Jeongin agrees with seungmin. And honestly I think I do too.

STMG hyung asked quite the peculiar question in his newest note. He asked "how do you know when you've fallen for someone?". I've never fallen for anyone before so I wouldn't know. But I feel like it's when you can't help but notice all the little things that person does. No matter how small it is it just makes you love them more. When you notice all their flaws and you accept them completely. When they can do the smallest things and make your world a bit brighter. Or maybe it's when you can't take your eyes off the person. They're so beautiful to you that you feel that you need to look them forever and ever and protect them so that no one hurts them.

Or maybe not.

I don't really know. But i feel like it's nice being in love. My mom tells me it is. I hope I can fall in love someday.

I have a day off today. But I wanna go back to the park again. I wanna make sure minho isn't crying on his own. So I'll wait until like one something and go see if he's there. I just hope he's not crying on his own right now.

-jisung 4:45pm

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Is this story going too slow? I feel like it's a little slow. So let me know if I should speed some things up a bit. 

Also I might double update today