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Diary Entry 38

February 16, 2019, Tuesday

Dear Diary,

I walked a new way home today. I usually take a shorter route or just get an Uber, but it was a nice night out tonight and it wasn't too cold like it usually is. So I decided to take the long way home.

Something happened on my home though. You see, on this route there's a park. The same park that johnny and I go to when we hangout. While I was walking passed it I saw minho sitting on a bench near a tree. If it wasn't for the street light I probably would have missed him. His head was in his hands and it looked like his body was shaking. He wasn't wearing warm clothes either. Just a thin jacket and a pair of sweats.

I couldn't leave him there all alone. So I walked over to the bench and tapped his shoulder. He flinched and hastily looked up at me. And when he looked up at me I saw big fat tears running down his face. His hair was messy and out of place and his eyes were swollen so I'm guessing this isn't his first time crying tonight. He looked so miserable, helpless, and vulnerable. My heart just broke at the sight.

So I hugged him. No one, not even someone who makes my life just that much harder everyday, deserves to cry alone. He didn't push me away so I took it that he didn't mind. Eventually he embraced me back. Minho gripped onto my coat and put his face into my neck. When I found him he wasn't letting his sobs out but when he buried his face into my neck is when minho started really letting the flood gates open. They were muffled and I'm pretty sure if he wasn't in my neck they would have come out as screams.

He was crying for about fifteen minutes until it seemed as if he couldn't cry anymore. He was just softly sniffling. Even though he was done crying he stilled held onto to me like if he let go he would fall into a dark abyss.

But when he did pull away his eyes and nose were red and now he was just shivering from the cold. Since I was wearing a hoodie underneath my coat I gave him my coat. He denied it at first but ended up taking it in the end. It was a little small on him but it seemed to warm him up.

I kneeled down in front of him and cupped his face to wipe at the small tears still coming out of his eyes. He looked shocked but eventually settled into my touch. After I wiped all his tears I leaned up and kissed his forehead like my mom would do to me after I cried.

When I looked back at his face his cheeks were a little pink and his mouth was agape. I giggled then asked if he was feeling better. He smiled at me and nodded his head. So then I asked if he was ready to go. He nodded again so I grabbed his hand and intertwined our fingers, then walked to the entrance of the park.

When we got to the entrance he smiled and waved at me before leaving. I watched him walk off until he turned the corner then made my way home.

I've decided that I like minho's smile and I don't want it to leave his face.

-jisung 3:15am