𝘿𝙀𝘼𝙍 𝘿𝙄𝘼𝙍𝙔 | 𝙈𝙄𝙉𝙎𝙐𝙉𝙂 {𝑫𝑰𝑺𝑪𝑶𝑵𝑻𝑰𝑵𝑼𝑬𝑫}

Diary Entry 42

February 25, 2019, Friday

Dear Diary,

Changbin is terrible. Almost as bad as the bullies at my old school. He steals all my stuff, he outted me, he kicks and hits me, he threatens me, etc. He does so much to me. I'm trying not to complain so much. People go through so much harder things than me. But it's just hard. And it's not even the bullying he's doing. It's the fact that he's bringing back old memories. Memories of all the terrible things my ex and uncle did to me. I don't want to think about it. But he's just making it hard to keep those memories under wraps.

And I'm scared. Felix and seungmin are starting to catch on to what's going on. Right now they only think changbin is bullying me. But I think they're starting to see that there's more to this than just changbin.

I don't want them to find out. I don't want them to see me any differently. What if they think I'm weak? What if they decide that can't be around me anymore because of it? I don't want to loose them. Jeongin and woojin already know. But with them it's different. They're the first friends I've made in a long time. And I'm scared to loose them now.

I know once they find out about my past I'll loose them from sure. Not just seungmin and Felix, but everyone I call friend. It's inevitable that they're gonna find out. And it's inevitable that they're gonna leave me. I don't want to make that time sooner rather than later.

-Jisung 5:11am

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So I have an idea for another minsung story that I really wanna write (If you wanna know what idea it is you can check my creators dump. It's stalemate uwu). And like I wanna start it right now. But like would you want that? Would you want to read that? And would you be okay if I didn't update this story as often so I could schedule in some time for the other story? Like this would still be my main focus but the updates would probably be less frequent. So what do you think?