Irondad and Spiderson One-shots (Discontinued)

Why'd You Have to Go? ~ Angst

Endgame spoilers ahead.

(Peter's POV)

I watched Tony close his eyes and take his last breath before leaving me forever. My mentor. My idol. Just...

Gone.

I start to let out small sobs. Small and silent sobs as I look at the lifeless Tony. I take hitched breaths as I just sob. I look over at everyone around Tony before looking at him.

The person who started this.

The person who killed my idol. My father-figure. I stop sobbing and stare at him menacingly, a scary look in my eyes. Tears are rushing down my face right now. "H-He killed him." I whisper pointing shakily at him.

My mask forms around my head. I step away from the people.

"Karen. Activate instant kill mode." I say, a demanding but quiet voice coming out of me.

"I'm sorry, but Mr. Stark has gotten rid of that option on your suit, Peter." Karen says. Seriously? You say that now?!?!

"Activate instant kill!" I say, more demanding this time.

"I cannot, Peter. I'm sorry." Karen says once more, pissing me off.

"Now!" I say, not peeling my eyes off of Thanos.

"I cannot do that. No matter how hard I want to let you. Mr. Stark has left you a message, though. Would you like to hear it?" Karen says.

Just hearing the name hurts so much.

"Yes, please..." I say, quieter.

"Hey, kid." The message starts. I can't bear listening to his voice. But I have to right now. "So if you're hearing this, I guess you tried to do instant kill mode. Well, I just want to let you know, I did it so you didn't lose sight of yourself after my death. I don't want you worrying about me, okay? You'll be alright, kid. I believe in you. You'll do great things, okay? Okay. Thank you for listening. I love you, Pete. My son."

The message ends.

I start to cry again and my knees buckle. I fall to the ground and cover my eyes with my hands. I sob into them and the end of the message plays through my head millions of times.

My son.

That one line meant the whole world to me. But I'll never hear it ever again... even if I wanted to. I'd have to try to activate instant kill. But I know I wouldn't have the guts. I couldn't ever imagine a world without Tony.

But that world where he wasn't alive, was this one.

I sob even harder, trying to make them as quiet as possible. I'm a superhero. A small one at that. I don't want to be seen as vulnerable and fragile. I want to be seen as a tough hero with nothing that will bring them down.

But I can't stop crying.

I don't care right now. I don't care if anybody will see me as weak right now. I'm at a loss of words and I can't seem to do anything else but cry. The thing that was so important to me, slipping from my grasp as easy as that.

Why did he have to go? Is this the start of everybody else left in my life leaving? It doesn't make sense. Why does this happen to me all of the time?

I look up from my hands covering my eyes. I look as some people just look at me in pity and some are sobbing themselves.

I can't believe this is actually happening...

I can't believe anything right now. It's like a nightmare I will never be able to wake up from. A nightmare that will haunt me and drag me down everywhere I go. A nightmare that will never go away and one that I have to live the rest of my life knowing of. No matter what I do or where I go, it will always come back to haunt me forever.

I look at Tony one last time...

"You were the best, dad..."

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I'm sorry

I made myself cry.