Welcome to Gang Life

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April's POV~
" It's your decision April," Derek says, taking a sip of his beer.

" I..I don't know," I mutter.

Currently I'm in my fathers..I mean Mr.Odiare's mansion sitting on one of their couches in Derek's study. Liam's playing a video game with Leo while Mason is making last minute plans for the meeting that's supposed to happen today.

With him.

With Axel.

Axel was interesting. That's the only word I can think of to describe him. I bumped into him one day and that's where our 'relationship' started I guess. We never really defined what we had. I didn't know what to define it as.

He introduced me to gang life, showing me his whole gang...letting me be apart it. I was extremely grateful so maybe that's where my feelings started to develop.

God I fucking hate having a crush.

You know that feeling where you like someone but can't express to them how you feel...so you just resort to not saying anything at all. Well that's what I was doing.

I don't know how to express my emotions verbally.

I hated the crush I had on him. He could literally do nothing at all and in my head I would be like 'wow' like what the hell is wrong with me.

I had an unrealistic expectation of the guy I was meant to be with. I would read the cheesiest books in the world with the girl that meets the guy and they fall in love. I love those books. They painted a beautiful picture of falling in love.

And I really wanted that.

I still want that to this day.

I just didn't know if I could fall in love with Axel. He made me crazy and I fucking hated it. But then my perspective started to change and I started to see Axel in a new light. A light of potential.

But then he ruined it. His stupid friend, Zion leaked the location of my brothers causing them to get hurt by a rival gang. To say I was pissed was an understatement.

So I packed my bags, said goodbye to my friends, and told Axel to go fuck himself.

Which he probably does.

I left gang life behind me and now I was being brought right back into it. I was okay with my new brothers and their gang, but seeing my old friends again and Axel seemed like too much at one time.

Hell I didn't even tell my brothers about my past. Which I plan on doing. Soon.

If I go I'll be confronted with all my problems at once. The consequences of that could be deadly.
My brothers could label me as a traitor or spy and Axel may do the same.

Everything was too confusing right now.

If I did go then all my secrets would be told and I'd finally be free. The weight would be lifted off my shoulders.

There were pros and cons to each side and I honestly didn't know what direction I was going in.

DING!

I glance over at my phone and a smile makes its way across my face to see its from Ace. I haven't talked to him in a while. I begin texting him.

I roll my eyes at his remark and put my phone down. It was weird since I haven't talked to Ace since our date. When we were on our date we didn't even talk about gang life or any of that since we didn't know how much the other person knew.

Now we were talking about it easily. It's kinda weird.

What's even weirder is him calling me babe. We only went on one date to.

" So are you gonna come with us to the meeting?" Derek asks.

I tell him my answer and relief courses through my veins.

And I just hope I made the right decision.

Authors Note~
Sorry for the short chapter guys. I really wanna know if you think April's gonna go or not.

You never know what could happen.

Byee.