I've been telling myself for years that I wasn't good enough and the minute I'm finally ready to commit the deed...to die...life won't fucking let me.
That's because life hates me.
I left my past life behind me and now I'm being brought back into it...
I gather myself together tears still streaming down my face like a waterfall and hop out of the shower. I quickly dry myself and apply lotion over my body and head out of my bathroom into my closet wearing a plan gray t-shirt and some plain dark blue jeans.
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I look in the mirror putting my hair up in a loose bun and sigh in content.
" I can do this," I whisper.
I grab my purse from my side table and dash out the door running down the steps of my apartment complex eager to get the day over with.
After a while I stop running and insert my headphones in my ear to avoid talking to anyone on these busy streets.
I officially have mastered the art of walking fast and not bumping into people. In New York that's an absolute necessity quite frankly.
" Hey April!"
I stop in my tracks and look around confused. Did someone just say my name?
" Over hereeeee!"
I look across the street to see Liam waving his arms like a maniac while Mason, Leo, Derek, Jake, and Elijah just stand there behind him looking away pretending not to notice Liam.
I giggle and slightly wave back. They start running across the busy street almost making every single car crash that's driving by. Soon they're standing right in front of me.
" We need to talk," Derek says.
Memories of me yelling at Derek come flashing into my mind and I realize that I'm supposed to be mad at him. A frown makes its way on my face and I turn around and walk away.
" What the hell! Wait....Ow...pardon me....excuse me...did you just ignore me....oh hell no do you wanna go!" I hear Liam scream from behind me while trying to make his way through the sea of people.
I look back to see Liam head to head with a man that looks around 6'7 and could beat the shit out of Liam.
Oh god.
I quickly run up to the both of them and wedge my way in between.
" Hey hey. My brother is really idiotic and is high so he's not in the right mindset," I say towards the man glaring down at Liam.
He nods his head and walks away as if nothing had happened.
" What the hell April I could've taken him!" Liam screams.
" Yea sure," I reply sarcastically.
Soon Derek and them catch up and I tap my foot impatiently.
" We need to talk April...please?" Derek asks.
I take out my phone and glance at the time, 11:30 am.
" You have 20 minutes," I state.
Liam drags me across the street and we all make our way into the Limo.
The car ride is silent with no one speaking and soon again we're in front of the mansion in which changed my life...kinda.
We all exit the car and head inside, the silence still engulfing all of us into an endless abyss. We make our way into the vast living room with pure white couches and portraits of beautiful flowers hung up.
We all sit down and a question lingers in my mind.
" All around the house is a flower I see everywhere...Jasmines. What's up with that?" I ask.
" Jasmine was our mothers name. After she died dad couldn't get over her so to honor her memory he hung up Jasmines everywhere," Leo says looking around.
I nod in understanding and look around inspecting the pictures hung up of their family. One picture of Mr.Odiare and a beautiful woman catches my eye. She has long dark brown hair and freckles across her face, like me. I point at the picture.
" Is that her?" I ask.
They all nod their heads and I continue to look at her face from a distance. She's gorgeous there's no doubt about it, but she isn't my mother. She didn't take care of me or look after me like a mother should. Selena García is my mother and she always will be. It's like how these men sitting before me aren't my brothers. They didn't look after me or nurture me as Tyler and James did. I understand that they didn't fully know, but I'll never consider them at the same standard as Tyler and James.
" We have a lot to tell you," Derek begins.
" From our perspective and side. We aren't who we made ourselves out to be," Mason says.
" I know...you guys have a lot of explaining to do,"
Authors note~ I know these chapters are getting kinda repetitive with me ending chapters like this and the next chapter being an explanation of what's happening, but I don't really know how else to do it so I'm really sorry. After the next chapter things will finally start making sense with more action and characters being introduced. Byeee
