This is a Safe Place.

7/29/19

You know what?

I've been so nice, so kind, so "it's all okay, we'll figure it out"... not anymore.

I hate this world, the things that I'm expected to be!

Flat stomach, perfect skin, amazing hair, curvy, skinny, big breasts, big butt, large lips, a perfect life... do you think that's reasonable?

There's so many people out there made of plastic saying "be yourself" but are they even being themselves? No! They are conforming to society just like everyone else hoping that they can feel "normal" and like they fit in!

No one is normal!

Guess what? Fuck normal.

I'll cut my hair, dye it whatever color I want, wear whatever I want, eat whatever I want but I still don't feel good about myself and I'm sure you don't either.

The world's standards are so hard to reach that everyone is practically born saying "why can't I be like them?" Why can't you be like them? Because, you aren't them, you're you.

Ray, I talked you off the ledge in the school bathroom... remember that... I'm sure you do. It was after he cheated on you for the second time. You were so tired, you felt numb. You wouldn't even let me in the bathroom stall. You came back into my aunt's office and acted like nothing ever happened, yet something did.

Oly, you're one of the only people that acted like a true friend around me after I came out. It's like you understood that, being bisexual, I'm  not out to make out with every person I  see and that I'm not friends with another girl just to turn them into my girlfriend.

Cate, you've talked me off of so many ledges, I can't even count. Every time I've wanted to end it all, you've made me stop and when I want to self harm you try as best as you can to make me drop that razor. I'm not okay and I may never be but I know that you'll be right beside me the whole way through.

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^^ What happens when you have waaayyyy too much time on your hands...