Until We Bleed

Last Night's Regrets

"You know how much I love you, right?" Axel's soft, almost sleepy voice resonates in Roxas' ear.

Roxas hums, eyes closed, the blond barely awake as he lies curled up next to his boyfriend. Lazily drawing imaginary circled on Axel's chest, Roxas nods slowly. His eyes flutter open, a sleepy look to them. Wrapped up in their sheets, warm on a cold night. Of course Roxas knows Axel loves him. They just finished displaying that love as a matter of fact.

"Roxas?" Axel chuckles, the vibration reverberating through his chest beneath Roxas' head, "You still with me, love?"

"Mhm.." Roxas hums, his eyes sliding closed again. Axel chuckles, almost laughing softly as he gently pushes some of Roxas' bangs back, "No, you're not."

He pulls Roxas closer, adjusting the blanket over him. He moves slightly, making their positions a little more comfortable since it's obvious there's no keeping Roxas awake. Roxas can hear the smile in Axel's voice, the last sound he hears before he fully loses himself to sleep.

"Sweet dreams, Roxas."

Roxas is woken by someone shaking his shoulder. He groans softly as he slowly opens his eyes. Vision blurry at first, but quickly clears up. He sits up, stretching his arms over his head. He finally looks at who woke him and everything comes flooding back. He sighs softly as Riku stares at him with an expression he can't read.

Riku crosses his arms, glancing away, "Sora's almost done with breakfast."

He then turns and walks into the kitchen. Roxas frowns lightly. He never really liked Riku much. It's not that Riku is a bad guy, he just hates how hard to read the man is. It seems only Sora can ever really tell what the silver haired man is feeling. It pisses Roxas off. Sure, he isn't always the easiest to read himself, but he feels like Riku makes a show of how emotionless he can look.

Roxas shakes his head. Riku has always been kind to him, he shouldn't be thinking like this. He sighs, rubbing his eyes as he moves to get off the couch. With the fight from last night now fresh in his mind once again, he just wants to go home and apologize. He started it after all, and he let things get out of hand. He always does this, let things get out of hand. Axel may have a temper, be Roxas is very dramatic.

He groans softly, standing. He drops his hands to his sides and meets Sora and Riku in the kitchen. Sora's at the stove, dressed the same as when he let Roxas in, the smell of bacon in the air as he prepares breakfast. Roxas glances at Riku and the man is only wearing a pair of black sweat pants with a gray line along the sides.

He looks back at Roxas, his expression as guarded as ever, "You can sit down. I can get you a cup of coffee if you need it."

Roxas takes a seat across from him, "I'm good. Thanks.."

Riku nods, the kitchen falling silent. Sora finishes his cooking and makes plates. He sets them on the table, one for each of them before taking a seat between Roxas and Riku. Roxas eats in silence and Riku and Sora exchange looks. Riku starts eating then and Sora follows. Their breakfast is eaten in silence, and the silence follows the cleaning up that happens after.

Roxas stays at the table as Riku and Sora clean up and then they sit back at the table as well. Sora sighs, "Riku and I talked this morning, and he agrees with me. You can stay with us until you can get your own place. No matter how long that might take, you have a place here."

Roxas stares at him in confusion, "What?"

Sora blinks slowly, his dark blue eyes are shimmering lightly, his eyes a bit puffy like he had been crying. He groans softly, looking away. He glares at the wall, "I hate to be the one to have to tell you this, but obviously there's no way around it."

Roxas frowns, "Say what..?"

Riku takes Sora's hand, looking at him. They meet eyes before Riku looks at Roxas, "We agreed you could stay here, under one condition. You have to break up with Axel. What you're doing isn't just bad for you, it effects everyone around you. We want to help you, but only if you'll help yourself."

Roxas stares at Riku, anger slowly bubbling within him. How dare Riku say all that with such a straight face? Does he not care about how Roxas feels at all? Do they not understand how much Axel means to him? Roxas clenches his hands into fists and he tries to speak evenly, "What are you talking about.. What I'm doing to myself..?"

"The.." Sora takes a breath, he just looks so sad, "The abuse you're just willing to suffer.. Y-you have bruises all over you, Roxas. Don't you care how seeing you like that makes me feel? I've always been there for you.. And now.. You.. You won't let me."

Roxas slowly stands, he won't look at them, "I think you've got the wrong idea. The bruises.."

Flashbacks of the shoving matches he and Axel have had. The bruises he left on Axel as well. This isn't what they think. Roxas looks back at them, "It's not all on him. Axel isn't.. He's not abusing me. We're fighting, that's all. I've left bruises on him, too. If he's bad for me, I'm just as bad for him."

Sora tries to speak but Roxas cuts him off, "I'm sorry, but I won't just give up on him. I love him too much to do that to him. Yeah.. I don't want to see him right now, but that doesn't mean I don't want to see him ever."

Sora frowns and looks at Riku. Riku frowns as well, looking at Roxas again, "Roxas.. I get that this is complicated for you, but you need to---"

"Stop telling me what I need to do!" Roxas slams his hands on the table. Sora jumps lightly and Roxas shivers, looking away, "Sorry.. Look, if you don't want me here, I can find somewhere else to stay while I cool down.."

"N-no.." Sora clears his throat, "No. You can stay here. Just.. Think about what we've been saying. Seeing you like that.. It does hurt me, Roxas.."

Sora gets up and leaves the room, going upstairs. Riku groans softly, calling after Sora as he follows him. Roxas watches them go, frowning. He doesn't understand why they're so upset. He's the one who should get to be upset. They're not the ones constantly fighting with the one person they love more than anything. If anything, he's allowed to be angry about this. He just sighs and sits back down, covering his face with his hands. Axel.. Are you as torn up about this as I am?