Ego (Justin Bieber Love Story)

Chapter Seventy-Four

‘Molly she’s gone, she’s really gone’ he sobbed into my shoulder.

‘I know’ he said softly as I stroked his wet hair.

‘But she had nothing to do with it! She wasn’t meant to get hurt!’

‘I know … I know’ I sighed as I held him tight.

‘oh my god, Lexi! Molly tell me Lexi is okay’ he shook his head as a tear ran down his face and mixed in with the rain battering off of it.

‘she’s fine … there’s absolutely nothing wrong with her’ I nodded sincerely. He breathed a sigh of relief.

‘I knew Donny wasn’t fucked up enough to shoot a baby’ he looked down.

‘actually’ I said looking away. ‘he went to your Mom’s looking for … he wanted to shoot Lexi’ It stung so much to say it.

‘what?!’ Justin shouted.

I nodded, ‘he would have as well, it was your Mom who saved Lexi. She locked Lexi in the bathroom and kept him away from her’

He just looked down and squeezed his eyes shut tight. ‘she saved Lexi’ he said quietly.

I nodded. ‘yeah … yeah she did’ he started to shake. I held him closer.

‘Justin I’m so sorry’ I said quietly as I kissed his forehead.

‘What? Why!’

‘If I hadn’t have been going to Africa you would still be in hospital, your Mom would be next to you. Lexi would be in the hospital with you guys and it would have been me that was at our place. It would have been me that got shot. It would have worked out better’ I looked down as I sat like Justin was.

‘What are you talking about?!’ he shouted over the thunder.

‘I’m talking about how it’s always me who does these things to you!’ I shouted back standing up.

‘No Molly, you’re the one who gets me through these things!’

‘because they’re my fault. Who did you have to carry around when they broke their leg?’

‘Molly you never asked me to do that, I wanted to!’

‘who was it that you broke up with, that caused you to sleep with Caitlin?’

‘That was my mistake not yours!’

‘who’s fault is this Donny mess? Who was the drunken slut that caused this all?!’

‘This mess is Donny’s fault! He took advantage of you!’

‘No! this is all my fault, can’t you see how much pain I’ve caused you?’ I was crying now as I realised what I was saying. I actually had done this all to him. I loved him. I loved him more than life itself. And I couldn’t hurt him anymore.

‘I think we should finish’ I cried.

‘what? No!’ he was crying too.

‘yes Justin! You would be so much better without me! I can’t hurt you anymore if we finish!’ I shouted as I turned and walked away.

Tears were running down my face.

‘Molly Muriel Fraser! Don’t walk away from this, don’t walk away from me!’

‘It’s better for you!’ I shouted. I knew I had picked the wrong time to do this, I mean the kid’s Mom just died. But it would be better for him. Would I miss him? Of course! Would I miss Lexi? Stupid question. Would I miss hurting Justin? Not one bit. Would I miss watching him cry, seeing him in a coma, having to have him pick up all the pieces of my shitty life? No.