It's been three days since the sun went out, the temperature has dropped and a lot of our people now have hypothermia. Lilly is helping everyone thankfully, we have fires going constantly and with all of our blankets were doing okay for now. I just don't know how long I can live like this.
"Have you guys seen Jasper lately?" Emily asked as she walked over to myself, Nicole, Devan, and Bellamy sitting around a fire. "No one has seen him at all today." She added.
"Last I saw him was last night after we ate." Devan said.
"You want me to help you look for him?" Bellamy asked smiling so big his dimples were showing.
"Yes, definitely!" She said with another huge smile. He put his hand on her arm as he lead her the ladder to go to the second level. I had to turn away when she was climbing because she managed to climb and simultaneously stick her ass out as far as it could go. It looked like it was going to burst from her pants. Bellamy probably enjoyed it, which is what she was most likely going for.
So my previous declaration about how I don't like him was not really all that true, and it hurts like a bitch knowing that they are right above me all alone. But I have to pull myself out of my thoughts- which were about killing Emily, or make her butt smaller, or how to make her less of a whore- and join the conversation with the other humans- who most likely don't think about things like that.
"I did wake up last night and see Jasper and someone else go downstairs but I fell back asleep before they came back up." Nicole said. "Maybe we should go outside and look for him. We could-" We heard a scream. "-uh. what was that?"
We all filed up the ladders to get to third floor and saw Jaspers lifeless body on the ground with a bullet whole in his chest. "Well I guess we don't have to go outside and look for him anymore." I said attempting to lighten he mood. Well apparently it is not appropriate to say something like that when you just discover your dead friend, because you should have seen the looks I got.
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It took the two guys digging Jasper's grave hours to do so, because the ground is frozen. But he is finally buried and the search for his killer has started. Nicole could only tell us that she saw Jasper with a guy last night but it was dark and she had just woken up.
"Any word on who Jasper's murderer is?" Bellamy asked as he came up behind me.
"No, nothing yet." I said attempting to end the conversation fast. I got up from the couch I was sitting on and headed for the ladder.
Bellamy reached out and grabbed my arm before Icould make it far. "Is everything alright?" He asked me. If I was going to live with Bellamy I was going to have to forget my feelings for him and let him have all the girls that throw themselves at him. And right now because of that I am going to try to have as little conversations as possible with him.
"Yeah." I said as our eyes met. "I'm fine. Why wouldn't I be?" I tried to walk again but he still had control of my arm and I need that body part, it's very important.
"You seemed different since last night before we found Jasper, I know you guys were friends so-"
"Whoa." I interrupted him. "Bellamy, people die around here all the time. Jasper was my friend but him dying doesn't completely shut me down, don't worry about me anyways my emotions are contained and perfectly fine." Okay so that was a lie, I want to tell Bellamy everything but I also don't want to make things weird or get hurt again so I can't. and I want to walk away but I also just want to stay here and stare into his brown eyes forever.
"Okay." He said as he finally let go of my arm.
"Okay? You good now? Crazy time is over?"
He rolled his eyes and smiled at me before turning away to talk to the guy trying to get his attention.
Truth is, crazy time has been on for a while, and it's not stopping anytime soon.
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I woke up sweating, I had about four blankets on me. I immediately pulled them off me, why isn't it cold? I could see that a lot of people were out of their beds so I went down stairs to see what was going on. It was warm down here as well but there was no one on the couches and no one at the tables. I walked over to the door hoping they would just be outside, I opened the door but was immediately blinded by the sun. Wait the sun is out! I walked out further into the forest but didn't see many people outside, I walked over to a group of people who were standing by where we keep our nuts and berries.
"Hey Carly." Brayden said as I went over to them.
"Hey, where is everyone and what is up with the sun?" I asked.
"Well a bunch of us woke up and saw that the sun was up so Bellamy immediately started sending out hunting groups." Ellen said.
I frowned. "And he didn't think to wake me up tell me about this?"
"Well from experience I know you can be quite grumpy in the mornings." Bellamy said walking up behind me. The rest of the hunters were back too and they had a lot of kill with them.
"Oh come on, your not still mad about when you tried to wake me up and ask me to help with sorting the nuts and I practically killed you? Are you?"
"A little." He smiled. "My arm still hurts from when you karate chopped me." He said acting offended. I had gone full out ninja on him.
"That will teach you to never wake me up after a previous night of hunting." I said sarcastically.
"Yeah whatever." He said as he shot me a playful smirk. "Listen a few more of us are going out hunting later this afternoon. If you've fully awoken by then, you should come with us."
"Oh. Uh, I don't know I will have to check that and get back to you." Truth is I don't want to go. although the idea of spending a few hours with Bellamy sounds fun, that's exactly why I shouldn't.
