⚠️ sucide refrances ⚠️
tanas pov:
imma tell billie now. if i get it over now whilst i'm in hospital i can't do anything stupid. "bil," i coughed out. she jumped up and ran over to me "are you okay tana?" she asked comcered "yeah i'm fine i'm just ready to talk," she looked at me softly "okay only if you are sure" "yeah i am, so it all started when i realised i was bi. i knew my mum and dad would freak out and do something bad. i hid it from them for about 3 years although i hooked up with my "best friend" and she claimed i forced her when her parents caught us, to protect herself. her parents told mine and i got kicked out." billie looked at me sympathetically, her eyes urging me to continue. "after she lured me i lost everyone and everything and spirled into depression, having re-occurring suicidal thoughts and dreams. i tried killing me self, but luckily amber was upon that roof top and stopped be from jumping although i had already taken an overdose. after that i was forced to have counselling and amber asked me to move in with her so i did." billie looked at me, "what did she say? if you don't mind me asking" i coughed and looked away, "i'll tell you but don't look at me. it's stupid" " it's not stupid if it saved you," she replied, "fine she played me listen before i go, heance it being on my art work, it made me feel less alone in what i was facing and that's when i found you" billie started crying, i had never properly seen billie cry so i just did my best and hugged her. she clutched onto me with a tight grip sobbing into my shoulder,
a/n i'm too tired i will finish this tomorrow night hopefully
