Exchanges text messages with Lovely:
Lovely: It's Saturday! Let's go shopping?
Me: Yay! Next time.
Lovely: Pretty please....
Me: Next time, pretty please?
(Seen 9:50 am)
At School: Lunch time
"Hey Belle, over here" Kenneth called out from our usual table during lunch. I just waved back "Next time guys." And head-off to the exit to have my lunch somewhere else.
Before Class Started (After Lunch)
The time I entered the classroom Gelbert who is smiling called for me to sit with them for a while since our teacher hasn't come in yet.
"Dito nalang ako sa may bintana guys, I need fresh air kasi eh. Mainit sa labas, next time na lang."
The smile on his face dropped and confusion took over. "Oh. Okay"
I smiled and went to my chair.
"Anong nangyari bes?" rinig kong tanong ni Kenneth sa mga kaibigan namin.
"I don't know either because noong Saturday I invited her for shopping and she said NEXT TIME" Lovely sighed
"And earlier at the cafeteria she said next time too, what is happening to her?" Kenneth asked as if somebody will answer his question. The truth is no one but me.
Pinili kong balewalain sila, kaya paninindigan ko to. NEXT TIME! Yan lang ang tanging excuse na masasabi ko sa kanila, sa ngayon. I'm avoiding them because I think that's the right thing to do. Once na makalabas ang sekreto ko sa isang tao, hindi na rin mahirap malaman ng iba. Yes, I trust Nathan, but it's not enough. I know I said that I trust him but I can't really get my mind into trusting him. Yeah, we're classmates, acquaintance or a friend maybe, I don't know what we are but one thing's for sure; he is merely a stranger to me. I tell him my secrets, my past. My dark past but I didn't even know him. His mom, dad or does he even have siblings. I don't know anything about him. So, you can't really blame me for not trusting him fully, what if he's pressured to tell the truth especially now that I am acting strange towards my friend then they'll go to the possible person I am last with. What if he slipped and spills everything? That would be a No, No. I know I am being paranoid or psychotic even but who cares?
I just wanted my past life to be forgotten, I just want to leave it behind me so I can start anew, but why it's still coming back to me. Now, that I'm really fine with where I currently am. I really like it here, new true friends, and maybe another batch of friends like Nathan, Kurt and Steve. I wanted to live a normal life, no bullies, no disguise, no fake friends, no lies, no pain and no nightmares to deal with every night.
So that I have come to a conclusion that I should avoid them at all cost. They can still make new friends and me? Well I am used to be alone. I don't have a problem with that and besides, it's my number one goal in transferring here, stay low profile, get good grades then graduate. I can't really find a job here anyway because after I graduate will be handling our fashion line in Paris. That's quite a plan right? So what's the use of having friends when you just have to let them behind in the end? I don't think that'll give them justice.
Am I being selfish? Yes I am! I don't care anyway because if being selfish means protecting my loved ones from any harm because of me, then so be it. I AM SELFISH!
Just when I have to stop blabbering in my head and just doze off to sleep, our door bell rang. Seriously, this late night? Who could this be, is it even human? Its late for god sake, I'm tired.
I got out of bed and head downstairs, and before I twist the doorknob I peek into the peephole to see who it was and I was surprised. Really, really surprised, because it's just not one person but, two, three, four...... OMG, what have I gotten myself into.
Okay maybe I am exaggerating...
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Author's Note
Short Update loviesss..
My mind has been blank this past weeks so, sorry.
I forgot that this is just a hobby so why do I care if you read it or not but i still hope that you do read this.
I'm gonna open up to you, this story is quite personal, close to my lifestory so, all my emotions and thoughts are in here, I hope that you like it. Even if you dont, I dont care. just saying.
still remember i love yah all loviesss..
maybe after I finish this story, I might take a break to find an inspiration.
thank you for all the support.
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