Skeletons

Numb

In this day and age
Everyone has gotten addicted
To the feeling of being numb

Would rather take down some rum
Then admit that
It isn't really fun
Being a prisoner
To your mind

Maybe that's why
They smoke weed
But I really wouldn't know
So I act like their dope fiends

You think
That I'm weak
Because I let my tears flow
Out from my eyes like the
Mississippi River

My mouth quivering,
Bloodshot red eyes
So red
You would have thought that I
Was high

I struggle to keep my eyes
Open wide
But guess what?

I don't care
I choose to feel,
Choose to let these emotions
Explode all over me
But you wouldn't understand
So you act like its a murder scene

You get so angry
Blood boiling hot
Every time i'm upset as if
My sadness ruins your day

Well I'm sorry

That you've become so good
At being numb
That anytime I mentioned feelings
You thought  was pretty dumb

You used drugs as a way
To avoid your feelings
Then mock me
For crying
When in the inside
I feel like dying

You tell me
"Stop being so sensitive"

You decide to crucify me
Anytime a tear drops down
From off my cheeks
And hits the cold, hard, floor
You tell me that my feelings
Are something I should ignore

There's no point in being sad
When you've got a blunt right?
And everything that you have
Been saying is just you
Being blunt, right?

You choose to take the easy way out
You're an intoxicated zombie
Who loves to devour on
My flesh and bone
Anytime you hear me mention
The reason I don't want to get stoned

Yeah maybe I do want to forget
But smoking and drinking
Only gives you so little
For so much in return

That feeling of being numb
Is so addictive
You don't want to feel pain
And if giving away a piece of yourself
Is what you have to do
Then okay
There's nothing else to say

You say I am weak
Because I choose to feel
So I can be in control over
My emotions

But you have to smoke a blunt
Every time your heart or your
The brain starts acting up but
Im the weak one

No your the weak one
Choosing to let this substance
Drag you on a leash
And not too soon
It'll turn you
Into a beast

You pour,
Take shot after shot
Became a slave
To the bottom of the bottle
You became chained
To that bottle
Till you hit rock bottom

So don't sit here and tell me
That I am stupid
For crying over something
So little
Do you know how many times
I chose to not cry because
I'm always told I have to
Keep it all inside

But no, you say
Suck it up
Stop all that crying
I am inferior to you
Because I don't let my
Emotions run loose

I grab emotion by its neck
And throw whiskey on its wounds

My emotion is an animal
A beast that I tame
And when I smoke a blunt
That's when I choose
To put that beast away

I'm the sensei
So im in charge
Of my temple
So I choose to let these
Drugs be my guards
And if emotion comes
They tremble

My body is a temple
That I need to praise
And when I smoke a blunt
That's when I feel
Its most sacred

And guess what,
Maybe that's true for you
But dont belittle me
Just because I dont do
What you want to do

If I cry then I cry
Let my emotions bleed out
Then I'll use a mop
To clean it up
Like It never even streamed out

So please
If your used to being numb
And I cry,
Just do me a favor
If you don't give a fuck
Then please
Just go and hit me up later