Skeletons

actress

The world is my stage
and I am the actress
I keep my emotions in
And let them out
Onto a flat matress

My smile is a distraction
so the world thinks I'm in tact and
I've learned to use big words like

"Fantastic"
"Extravagant"
"Pleasent"
"Gradulant"

Because if I say "I'm fine"
They'll already know that's a lie
So as an actress I keep in tact and
make sure I eat healthy,
Because if I'm too skinny
Their gonna think that
"I'm not eating"

Hand down my throat
As I get rid of these lies as I cry
But hey I'm an actress
If I cry I'll say it's because
I watched a video of a cat
playing with a toy rat
and I thought it was so funny

Because as an actress
I have to act as if I am completely fine
My whole life is a lie
But I'm fi- Oh I mean extravagant!
I'm just extatic to be here today

"Stop being and actress, I know you're mad and
I want to let you know that it's okay."

So I take off my mask and oh look at that
I'm not being grateful
"You have clothes on your back."
"You have a big bright smile"
"You have friends who care."
"Stop trying to gain attention."

But for the audience it's so easy looking
From the outside in, when you aren't
Looking from the inside out
Its so easy for you to stand on a gold plate
And say that the paper plate I stand on
Is so fucking great

You say you relate to me because you have a fork
And I have a spoon, but tell me why
When I express myself, I'm the fucking fool?
"Appreciate it." They say.

Tell me, why do you ask if I'm okay
Then when I say that i'm not you tell me
"Well you should feel okay." As if telling me
how to feel would change my perspective

This is too much! I've had enough!
I'm done talking, I'm done explaining
You think this is all so entertaining?
Well I am an actress and I will act as if I am okay

Then go home, take off my mask and
Maybe the blood, the dark red eyes I have,
My blurry vision because I wear glasses
But at school I wear contacts, maybe
Under my skin, my flesh, this role, I possessed

Maybe somehow you would see my act
And you won't criticize me
Because I don't even have blonde hair,
Or blue eyes because I guess the brown hair
That I have, is so great to despise

I guess I'm fake because I had to be
Something that I am not so that society
Could be comfortable, cause if I walked around
Grumpy and crying all day, than I guess that's I
"Like to exagerate"

Ha!

So I am an actress, My smile is a distraction
And the role that I play, is a matter of attraction
I am an actress