Skeletons

contacts

Memories kind of fazed
My vision almost blurred
Trying to explain this feeling
But I can never figure out the words

I never thought I needed glasses
Because my vision was oh so clear
But the more that time has passed
Can't remember your face
It's almost like you've dissapeared

And I fear that
As day after day keeps passing by
I keep helplessly trying to
Hold onto a single memory of you

Trying to remember those humane things
About you
The things pictures can't develop
Keep trying to grasp onto
Whatever possible assumption
I may have of you

What I may think you would
Say or do if you were present
If you were near

And it looks like I need contacts
And if I dont get em right now
I might forget your presence
So please just hurry

I hate to say this now
Because it sounds mean
But I'm trying to figure it out

The pain stung like a bee
And it stayed,
I remember that immense pain
That I felt before
Till this very day

But then soon after
I felt no more pain
Just the memory
Of the pain

Is it weird that I'm scared
Of the new normal?
That I'm scared of being okay
Without you?

Not saying that I dont want you here
But
I'm scared of being fine
Being happy
While your gone

It makes me feel guilty
Even though I shouldnt be but
I am

Wearing glasses my whole life
And now they broke
Being without glasses
Was a really hard thing to do so

No I'm feeling guilty because
Now that I've gotten used to contacts
Glasses are something that I probably wouldn't use

It sucks
Maybe it's true
That yes I'm scared
Of forgetting you
But I'll try not to
And if I do
Then I'll try taking out these contacts