Skeletons

midnight

And then it happened
The clock struck midnight
My beautiful dress
Turned back to shreds
Carriage to pumpkin,
Mascara running down my eyelids

And it always happens
When no one can ever see me
And people begin to leave me
And maybe this is another form
Of grieving

Because my pillow always knows
How this routine goes at midnight
How I try to go to sleep
But I can't tonight

Yes I always cry
And im afraid to admit it
But I honestly want to die
And you could be my witness

This time,
Maybe I'll achieve it
Before the clock hits nine

Maybe I'll over think
Till it's 4am
Then go to sleep just so I
Can do it all over again

Can you stay with me? Till midnight
I don't think I'll make it past 5 pm
The anticipation of midnight
Is honestly hell

This isn't a lie
Why does 12 o'clock
Always Have to fuck with me
When all I want to do
Is try to get some sleep

Maybe my fairy godmother
Didn't hear her voicemail
This whole Cinderella fairy tale
Has been really hard to tell

I cant sleep well
I know I've said it a thousand times
But please
I'm just asking
Can you stay with me
One more night

Its 12:01
My skin is starting to itch
From the makeup that's drenched
This mascara
It sticks

I have talks with the moon
At least hes on my side
Cus it sucks that my mind
Isn't even on mine

We have battles
In the night
I think I might lose this fight
My evil mother
Isn't even
This damn uptight

My step sisters
For a fact
Wouldn't win in this match
Cause the darkness
In my mind
Is an evil
Unmatched

The pumpkins veins
Around my brain
Got me going insane
It's this pain I cant explain
Wish it'd just go away

12:30 please hurry
I cant stand the day time
Cause those 3am thoughts
Has got me sad

And I dont like
When im
Reminiscing the good times

Weighing in on the bad thoughts
Magnified with a glass
So burnt out
Don't know how to talk

12pm
I got through the day
Its 12:09 and I feel okay
I guess I survived that night
But will I see another day?

That's really hard to say
But I'll find out
Stay up till 12am
Got things to talk about

I go through this again
Better hope this time I win
Because I don't know if I can
This time

But I dont know
So I'll stay up this night
Until the clock hits midnight