Skeletons

scars

It feels like a really bad scrape
That shit hurts an
I try and act like that shit doesn't burn
I try an pretend
It's not there
Dont give it the proper treatment
So it cant be repaired

It needs to heal
So it feels so so bad
Every time I see his face
The pain escalates
Like pouring alcohol
Onto an open wound
I try to keep my cool
But it's hard because it sizzles

It's hot
My body tightens up
When I hear his voice
It makes me want to stop
Drop dead
It's not fair

Why do I let him
Have this much control over me?
I knew falling in love was a risk
But I never thought about how
Falling out of love would affect me
Like this
Because when I fell
I scraped myself

Slid onto the concrete floor
Blood slowly oozing out
And you were the one who pushed me
And now you leave
With your small mark
Already covered with a bandaid

You had the time
To pour hydrogen peroxide
On your wound of a
Somewhat broken heart
And I am here

Trying to learn how to stand up
On my own
with no help
Trying to learn how to keep walking
Even though this pain
Is something I've never felt

I try to pretend
The scar never existed
Try to think of ways I could of prevent it
But every time I see your face
You remind me
That your the reason why
My heart is dented

But your also the reason
I believed true love existed
And maybe that's why it hurt so much
Holding your hand believing
You wouldn't push me
But you did

Silly me
I'm always so naive
To think you would never
Do such a thing

But like all scars I shall heal
Maybe someone will push you down
And show you how it feels
Till then I'll keep this souvenir
Of a broken heart

When my next love asks me
Who left me with these scars
I'll tell him it was you

I know your happy that were through
But please do not text me
Cause you really won't be helping me

Its true
I really do love you
Even though you left me with
These scars