Why like this? (Matthew Espinosa)

Where do we go from here

I sat up on my bed. I went to my closet and looked at my clothes. Nothing. I need to go shopping. I pulled out sweatpants and matts sweatshirt he left here a couple days ago.

I redid my makeup and put my hair in a pony tail. I looked in the mirror. I grabbed my keys and phone and left. I walked up to the park to see the cool winter air blowing the trees slowly. It was about 30 out. I sat on a bench and started thinking. Matt and I have had such a strong relationship. But now he will be leaving for who knows how long. And I won't see him that much and I am just gonna miss him cause I'll have nobody. At all. Nobody to help me, tutor me, play with me, hang, cuddle, keep me warm. Nobody. Everyone is leaving. Even my best friend is. I sighed. My eyes filled with tears. I checked my phone 5:30.

I heard shuffling behind me. I just kinda brushed it off. I felt a warm hand touch my back. I looked and saw Matt. I gave him a faint smile and looked down. I tear slid down my face, I quickly wiped it away before Matt saw.

"Baby" he questioned sitting next to me.

"Yeah?" I replied looking at the ground.

"Well I talked to my manager Bart and he said you could come." He said a huge smile coming across his face.

"I can't. I can't hold you back Matt. I am moving into my apartment soon. I want to. But can't. Listen you'll do this. Your gonna go and enjoy your time with your beautiful fans who love and support you and your amazing friends and not think about me or worry about me at all. I'll be fine. Then when you get back your gonna tell me all about your amazing experience. Then I'll go with you." I looked into his eyes.

"Tay.. Babe. No please. Come I need you. Your my girlfriend. You stuck by my side the whole time. You never give up. Your the only girl I care about. The only girl I want to wake up and see in the morning and spend my life with. I love you so much. I can't leave you." He cried.

I pulled him into my arms. "Baby. You have to. It's for the best. You know it is. You'll enjoy your time much more when you won't have to worry about me the whole time. I mean your fans are gonna be there and there all 900 times prettier than me and love you so much. I'm sorry Matt. I'll go. Just not right away." By this point I was in tears.

"No. You need to. The boys all want you to come. Gracie would enjoy your company but mostly me. You'll have the time of your life. Traveling the world with us." He cried more.

"Matt. Your making this harder for me. I need to move in and get ready for my online classes and stuff. I'll miss you so much. I love you" I stood up.

"Can I stay with you tonight. Help you move into to your apartment until I leave. I need to spend every moment with you because you mean to much to me to just let you go." Matt said.

"Of course. I would love for you to stay with me." I smiled wiping his tears away with my thumb.

"I love you" he smiled.

"I love you too" I hugged him. He kissed my forehead.