Why like this? (Matthew Espinosa)

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We all woke up at about noon.

"Oh man I ate to much ice cream." Nash complained rubbing his stomach "or maybe it's because of Taylor."

I smiled at him and walked away into the kitchen.

"Should we go to school?" Taylor asked all of us.

"I don't care. If you want to go I can go so you have a friend but by the time we get there it is gonna be at least 5th period" I finished.

"Alright. I'll go home and shower and get ready and meet you back here." Taylor said standing up from the chair.

"Ok." I said. "I'll go shower. You guys can wear jacks clothes if you want to go with us."

"Ok. Can I shower?" Nash asked me.

"Yeah sure. I'll shower first then you can and then Cameron if he wants to." I said. By this time Taylor left to go home.

"Ok." Nash said meeting me in the kitchen.

"So what did you guys think of him?" I asked the boys.

"He's really cool. I can't wait to get closer with him." Nash said smiling.

"Yeah he is really cool. Fun to talk to and chill." Cameron said taking his attention off his phone.

"Aww you guys are so sweet." I said poking Nash's stomach laughing "I'm gonna go shower"

"Hehe right and ok." Nash said. I walked upstairs.

"Hey help yourselves to anything." I said over the railing.

I got no response. I grabbed a pair of sweat pants and a tank top. It was kinda cool out so I was just gonna put my dance jacket on. I got in the shower and did everything and go out and got dressed. I put my clothes on and then put my hair in a messy bun.

I grabbed clothes for the boys and went downstairs to see them on there phones.

"You guys can shower. I pulled clothes out for you all so you can dig through them." I smiled putting my black vans on.

"Alright thanks." Nash said running upstairs.

Nash got out of the shower and Cameron got in. Taylor showed up and soon enough we were ready to go.

School went by slow. I saw Matt here and there. Every time I saw him he was with Tina.

I left school and went home. I was really depressed. I tried the whole smiling for 60 seconds thing. It didn't help. I was home alone so I went into the bathroom. I closed the door and locked it, I looked in the mirror and realized how ugly and worthless I was. I felt tears well up in my eyes I didn't want to hold them back so I just let them out. I slid down the door and cried for at least an hour. I stood up and walked over to the cabinet, there they were. I picked up the case of un-used blades. I took one out and held it in front of me.

I set my phone far enough away to the point where I couldn't reach it from where I was.

I had the blade in my left hand, I held it up to my wrist and slowly dragged it across my wrist. It stung at first but went away. I watched the blood seep out of my wrist as I continued. There was one spot on my wrist left that I hadn't touched.

All I could think of was this moment and what would happen "this is the spot that will end your life. The spot that would make everyone's life easier if you ended it." I whispered to myself.

I picked the blade up and set it on my wrist. I have force in as I was interrupted by the front door opening. I ignored it as I felt the tears streaming down my face and burning my skin. I looked at my bloody floor and wrist and blood stained cloths. I sighed and continued crying. I heard footsteps coming up the stairs.

It wasn't mom she left this morning for Costa Rica on a work thing and dad was still out of town.

"Taylor" they yelled up the stairs.

I covered my mouth as I heard Cameron yell my name. I couldn't let him see me like this. I tried to hold back my sobbing. The footsteps were getting louder and louder as they approached the door.

"Taylor. I know your in there." Cameron said through the door.

I didn't respond I continued to put all of my weight on the door so he couldn't break the door down. I moved my hand away from my mouth and let out a loud cry. I didn't mean to.

"Taylor are you ok?" Cameron said "please open the door. I'm begging you."

I didn't move. I stayed still. I had blood still coming out of my wrist dripping onto the floor. There was a mixture of blood and tears on the floor.

"Taylor come on please. I'm worried about you" He said through the door.

"Go away Cameron" I mumbled crying.

"No. I'm not leaving until you open this door." He said.

"Fine." I cried. My sight got really blurry and I got dizzy. As I reached for the door handle to unlock it I fell backwards.

"Taylor oh my god are you ok?" He asked running up to me.

I didn't respond.

He pulled his phone out, tears running down his face. "Hello 911. My friend Taylor smith is bleeding everywhere and it won't stop. She's about to pass out please come help her I can't lose her."

He hung the open up and picked me up and wrapped a wet cloth around my wrist and brought me down stairs.

"Taylor stay with me. The ambulance are on there way don't leave me please Taylor." He cried.

Soon enough I was put onto a stretcher and in a vehicle.

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A/n:

Sorry if this got depressing. I feel like shit right now and literally just want to die. So sorry if you didn't like the ending I hope the next chapter will be happier. I don't know when I will post I just feel like crap and I want to cry but my parents and brother are pissing me off and won't leave me alone so theres your update. Goodbye.