Why like this? (Matthew Espinosa)

Your moving on.

I got a text on my phone disturbing my train of thought 'can I come over' it read.

I sighed. 'My apartment is messy. Meet me at the park in 10 minutes.'I responded.

I walked inside throwing my carton thing away and changed into some sweatpants and Cameron's sweatshirt he keeps leaving.

I walked towards the door with my phone in my hand swinging my keys around my finger.

I got into my car and decided on music. I picked 'thinking out loud' by Ed Sheeran

I sighed and started driving. Soon my song was over and hoodie Allen came on. tis my fave. Me and Gracie used to jam to him.

I pulled up to the park and walked to a bench. This was a very good park. It was lit up well protected by wild life. I loved coming here. Plus I used to play here all the time when I was little.

"Taylor you came" he said.

"Of course I did" I sighed scooting over so Matt could sit down.

"I've missed you" he said trying to start a conversation.

"Why did you want to talk matt" I asked him.

"Well I wanted to catch up with you" he smiled.

"Well I'm great. How's Rebecca, Ashley, and Rachel doing" I asked him.

"Who's that" he asked. I rolled my eyes and sighed. I looked at him and glanced over.

"Why did we break up" Matt asked.

"I don't know. Ask your self. I was being the bigger person and apologizing but you broke up with me so good question" I asked.

"Taylor look I'm sorry about that. I was upset and tired and I regret not talking to you before I left. I regret how I ended things with you before I left. I was a wreck. Whenever I saw you on Instagram or Twitter I got alittle happier then that's when it hit me. You weren't mine anymore." He sighed.

"You think you were a wreck. Bull Matt. You didn't even give me a reason. You let my sit here for the longest time thinking it was my fault blaming myself. Hell I still do Matt. I lay in bed at 3am staring at my black sealing constantly thinking what I could have done differently to keep our relationship strong and get it back on the right path. But now I don't need to" I sighed getting up walking down the sidewalk to my car.

"Taylor listen. I've been the same way. My fans have noticed everyone. You changed me for the better and now your gone" he frowned.

"Matt I've seen you on Instagram with those girls, you taking them to the movies or getting pizza or ice cream. Trust me. There probably better girlfriends" I approached my car and unlocked it.

"Taylor I was being nice" he defended himself.

"Your moving on" I said getting into my car driving away. A tear rolled down my cheek as I quickly drove home. I couldn't wait to leave. I got a phone call.

"Hello" I answered.

"Taylor. I'm having a party Wednesday. Can you please come?" Matt asked.

"I can't. I leave Tuesday. If I was gonna be here of course I would but I won't. I'm sorry" I sighed.

"Where are you going" he asked.

"England to stay with my brother" I smiled. I pulled into my apartment and walked to the entrance

"Oh well. I guess I'll see you soon. Bye Taylor I lo.. Bye" he said.

"Bye Matt." Said hanging up. "I love you too" I whispered.

I cried again. I haven't cried in a while I've been so strong.