Why like this? (Matthew Espinosa)

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I woke up to an empty bed. I looked around the room. Matt was on his laptop on twitter. I smiled. I pulled my phone out. I went on twitter and went on matts page. He didn't follow me. I don't even think he knew I had an account. None of the boys did or Gracie.

I rolled over to matts side of the bed and inhaled his smell. It was nice. I texted Matt.

'Babe. Come lay down. I'm cold:(' I sent to him.

I saw him look over at me. He set his laptop down and walked over picked me and the blanket up. We walked over to the couch his laptop was on and sat down. He put me on his lap and pulled his laptop over me.

"What are you doing" I mumbled.

"I'm just on twitter." He said into my hair.

"Oh cool" I smiled.

"Yeah babe. We should make a youtube video together today" he smiled.

"Alright" I answered.

What if his fans don't like me. Or if they don't approve of me. Man. I'm scared now. Matt leaves it 2 weeks and if I get hate then I'll deal with it alone.

"I'll start setting everything up"he smiled picking me up bridal style.

I nodded my head before he threw me on the bed.

"Thanks babe" I said getting up. I grabbed my bag and headed to the bathroom.

••••

I walked out of the bathroom and was wearing a tank top and Hollister shorts. I had on white sneakers and my makeup was done. My hair was in a pony tail.

I walked into matts room. He was only in shorts. He was on the phone.

"Dude I know."
"Isn't she"
"Like god."
"Haha. Whatever man. I have to go. My girlfriend is over"
"Bye"

Before I knew it he was off the phone. I walked into his room and sat on the bed.

"You look cute" Matt said.

"Eh" I laughed.

"Okay. Are you ready" he asked.

"Eh" I mumbled.

"Babe. What's wrong?" Matt asked setting his hand on my thigh gently.

"Nothing" my voice trailed off.

"That's a lie. Please tell me" he frowned.

"What if they don't like me?" I whispered.

"They will" he said.

"I doubt it. I'm ugly and fat. I'm noting compared to half of those girls Matt. There all beautiful and skinny and nice. I'm just loud and annoying. I'm only useful if people need something. No one really pays attention to me anyway. Before we started dating I didn't even talk to Nash or Carter. The only person who knew about my family was Gracie. Now you know, Carter, cam, nash, taylor. A lot of people. But still. All these girls are amazing and perfect and have like amazing body's and cute laughs and pretty faces and all this other shit I don't have. I'm just me. I'm fat, I have big thighs and a super annoying laugh. I hate scary movies. I like food. And all this other stuff. But I'm am nothing compared to Tahoe girls Matt." I finished.

"Tay. None of that is true. Your perfect and amazing. Id rather wake up with you cuddled up all next to me in the morning then any of those girls. Your the only one I want to come home and sit on the couch and eat cake and pizza after a long hard day. Your beautiful. Every freaking inch of you. I love your laugh and face. Your laugh is like the cutest thing in the whole wide world. None of those girls mean as much as you do to me. Trust me." He smiled. He wrapped his hand around mine.

"Debatable." I laughed.

"I don't care" he laughed.

He kissed every inch of my face before reaching my lips. He pulled away and looked into my eyes.

"Your beautiful" he smiled.

"Thank you babe"

"Ok. Are you ready?" he asked.

"I guess. What are we doing?" I questioned.

"You'll see" he smirked.

Crap.

"HELLO everyone. It is Matthew Espinosa here with my youtube video. Today I have a guest joining me. My girlfriend Taylor." He smiled pointing to me.

I waved.

"Isn't she adorable?" I looked down blushing at his remark.

"Today we are doing 20 questions. I don't know if we will get to 20 questions but we shall find out now won't we." He finished.

I giggled at his comment.

"You go first" he handed me his phone.

"Ok. Question 1: what grade did we meet in?" I asked.

"7th" he answered quickly.

I nodded and handed him the phone.

"Question 2: what's my eye color"

"It's like a brown with hazel and stuff. There pretty" I laughed.

He handed me the phone and I took it from him.

"Question 3: what brand of makeup do I use? this should be easy" I smirked.

"Crap. Um. Maryrae" he said.

I died.

"What?" he questioned laughing.

"It's Marykay." I laughed.

"Oh. Close enough." He laughed kissing my cheek before slipping his phone from my hand.

"Question 4: what show do I love that nobody knows?" he questioned.

"That's easy. Pretty little lairs" I smiled.

He blushed. And handed me the phone.

"It's alright babe." I laughed hugging him.

"Question 5: what is my fav kinda cake?"

"Uh chocolate" he answered.

"Yeah" I handed his phone back as he started scrolling.

"Were only going to 10. So question 6: what is my football number?"

"81" I looked down at our positions.

Matts hand was wrapped around my waist as was on his leg. My head was leaning on his shoulder and we had a blanket wrapped around us.

"Question 7: what is one thing you wish I didn't do?" I asked him.

"Kiss me. Girl you nasty" he laughed.

"Well then. Guess who is sleeping alone tonight." I laughed.

"I'm just joking. Your kisses are the best" he laughed kissing my lips.

"Ok your turn" I handed him the phone.

"Question 8: what would I eat everyday if I could?" he asked.

"Um bagels right?"

"Yeah girl." He laughed.

"Ok. Question 9: who is my best friend?" I asked.

"Gracie."

"True true."

"Question 10: what do I collect" he asked.

"I don't even know" I laughed.

"Alright. Whatever. Well guys this is the end of my video. I hope you liked it. And Taylor. She beautiful" he said squeezing my cheeks. "But go follow me on twitter and Instagram and vine. Subscribe to my youtube and give this video a thumbs up" he smiled. "I love you guys. Byee" he closed the camera.

"I love you" he said before falling back.

"I love you too" I kissed him.